Running, food and cat lover :)

*brb going to go on a little rant*

As most of you know, at the beginning of this year I decided to talk a step back from fitness and the intensity that I was approaching it with to find a more balanced lifestyle. Why? Because every single day of my life was a mental battle. I HAD to avoid certain foods because they wouldn’t fit my macros, and I’d spend hours thinking about it. I HAD to get in my lifts and do cardio, 5-6x a week, which often meant skipping classes because I could not physically fit in everything with my schedule (yay for paying $40k a year to skip classes for a lift). I found myself having anxiety when hanging out with friends because things weren’t in my control.

A lot of you called me dedicated, determined, willing to give it my all, and at the time I thought that’s what it was, but being dedicated and being disordered look very similar when you’re balls deep in an obsession. Holla at having an extremely addictive personality.

My point is this: not everyone is like me and gets obsessed with things, but if you are, step back and really think it through. Are you putting your entire life on hold just for a physique? If so, why? It’s important to find BALANCE between being a freaking human being and doing fun human things and being an athlete. My goal has never been to be a professional athlete, so there’s no sense in putting your life on hold to go do some damn deadlifts.