be happy and healthy

Since lockdown, I have been on a rollercoaster ride with working out; I started walking every morning I could (not in the rain), then I moved onto the Chloe Ting 4 week challenge (I did all 4 weeks and then didn’t do the last day and stopped working out all together for like 2 weeks), and now I’m back to walking in the mornings and want to run.

I look in the mirror some days and think “wow, look at me! I look great just the way I am”, and then other days I think I’m a disgusting blob and need to stop eating. And I feel like this has been happening for over a year now. I can’t seem to get into a head space healthy enough to lose weight in a healthy way to be where I know I want to be. I get into exercising for 1-2 months and nothing happens so I give up.