[17:27]Ā Donghyuck holds your arm captive, hugging it like a koala, his shoulders shaking as pitiful, ragged sobs hiccups out of him. His chest heaves with shallow and shaky breaths, gut-wrenching sobs wracking throughout his whole body.
āYou promised me forever, Y/N!āĀ
Your throat tightens as a flurry of memories rushes back inside your head. You think back to when you uttered that promise, a night with his arms around you, hands intertwined with each otherās, lips sliding countless of times together, giggles and laughs, jokes and love-struck looks shared with one another, the promise of forever lingering in the air.Ā
āYou said you donāt make promises you donāt keep.ā He hiccups, his voice rough and raspy. Donghyuck doesnāt understand. Heās not sure he wants to. The desperation is clear in his eyes, sobs pained and voice nearly gone, but he keeps a tight hold on your arm, terrified of what will happen if he lets go.
āYou said- you told me forever,ā he repeats, almost like a mantra, voice cracking and your heart almost breaks for him. Almost.
"You promised me!ā He suddenly yells, an anguished sob echoing through the room. You think back to all the days you spent, enjoying his company and lazing around, stealing kisses and hiding smiles, yearning for a bigger home, wedding bells and exchanging vows. Donghyuck shakes your arm madly, tears streaking down his face, āYou promised me, Y/N!ā
āDonghyuck,ā you start, not knowing how to continue. Gulping, you try to form the words, not wanting to hurt him any further, but it was clear youād have to, the boy clutching you tightly a blubbering mess, hair disheveled and pleading under his breath.
It was naive, you realize. So naive to think it would last forever. But it was easy to get lost in the haze of love, so easy to promise the rest of your life, especially when Donghyuck gave you nothing but his all, his love, his heart, his everything.
Your heart lurches and you feel sick, feelings of guilt and despair ringing within you. He doesnāt deserve this. He deserves true and undying love, to be spoiled with affection, sweet intoxicating kisses under the moonlight, breathless praises whispered under the sheets; nothing but pure devotion and ardor. But your love didnāt last and you donāt know when it all stopped.Ā
You started pulling away. You started becoming distant and quiet, refusing his hugs, turning away from his lips, returning his professions with insincerity. Donghyuck noticed, of course. He always noticed. His love and care for you knew no bounds, of course, he noticed. His heart ached every time you looked away, every time you gave him those uninterested hums of yours and every time you gave him the same excuse of being tired. But he loves you. So much. So much that when you asked for space he gave it to you, when you asked him to stop the hugs, the kisses, he tried his best and refrained from them. You knew he was deluding himself, telling himself that itāll all go back to normal soon if he just gave you what you wanted, if he did what you asked. Heās fallen too far in but you canāt take it anymore.
āPlease donāt leave me, Y/N, please.āĀ
āIām sorry, please, please, please donāt go,ā he whispers agonizingly, almost incoherent. Pleads spill out of his mouth in waves, becoming louder and louder and his voice is so rough, so hoarse and raspy, you almost vomit at the guilt.
Heās shouting now, almost insanely, but you canāt blame him.Ā āI thought you loved me, you said forever! You promised!ā
āI did,ā you answer him quietly. āI did love you. So much. I loved you so much, Donghyuckā¦ā
You continue, refusing to look at him for the fear that you might break,Ā āI know what I promised, Donghyuck.ā
His grip on your arms loosens a bit, but itās enough for you to wrangle it out. He tries to reach for you again, but you step back and hurt fills him even more, another sob breaking out of him.
"I know I promised, but you know Iāll break it if I have to.āĀ You sigh, āI canāt do this anymore.ā
āNo, please,ā he begs, staying rooted to his spot.Ā Ignoring his words, you step towards the door and you almost hesitate, but you open it, not even sparing a glance at the boy who once had your heart in his hands.
The door slams shut behind you.
Donghyuck crumples to the ground, his arms wrapping around himself.
