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A questionable holy man, a '90s metalhead ghost and a skeptic gun-for-hire travel across the country fulfilling uncanny missions given to them on an old, pink flip phone.

DETAILS:

🩸 genre — supernatural, horror, urban fantasy, mystery 🩸 themes — (forced) found family, belief/faith, destiny vs. free will, beauty in the monstrous 🩸 status — in progress 🩸 medium — mixed medium 🩸 wordcount — TBD 🩸 warnings — assume everything's in here pls

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Summary, Characters & More Info under the cut:

"what do I do if I shouldn't call 911?"

well "I'm sorry I'm in a rush" is a pretty good option or "I can't talk right now, sorry" and then move on.

psychotic people, ultimately, are people. they are just as human as you are and the vast vast vast majority of the time they're not interested in hurting you.

when you're approached by a psychotic person ranting about delusions or hallucinations (and possibly speaking with disorganized speech) they are just looking for human connection, that's all. they might not have many people around to talk to and it gets lonely. when someone talks to you about a secret society of mind readers out to kill them they are just trying to connect with people and sometimes process the fear they're experiencing (because a secret society of mind readers out to kill you is rather scary!)

things like mania can also make you very talkative and very social.

someone coming up to you to talk about being the second coming of Jesus isn't trying to hurt you. they just want to talk. if you have time then have a conversation, most of the time you don't even need to say much. you can politely nod and go "wow that's crazy" and "that's so scary" and it might be one of the kindest things someone does for them that day. if you don't have time just say you're in a rush and leave.

I recently went through my old posts on my mostly abandoned Insta account.

My Insta was always a modest bookstagram. About 10 years ago, I got max 100–200 hits per post, and comments were mostly from my irl friends, although New York literary agents and small press publishers I was interning with as a student also followed it. This was plenty for me; I was happy in my lil' book community.

Then reels became a thing, first making up a small percentage of my feed so that it wasn't immediately clear that Meta had decided my style of posting was out the door. My stats very abruptly tanked at one point, though, going from 3-digit 'likes' to only a handful of my closest friends liking my posts.

I found out that Insta was shadow banning people who posted pictures instead of reels, so my posts were no longer being seen. That was pretty much the end of Insta for me.

I hadn't looked at my old posts in awhile, but here's what I found:

Lengthy, detailed, thoughtful book reviews. Multiple paragraphs. I quoted excerpts from the books, author interviews, and other reviews. I just ran some of my captions through Microsoft Word, and I was writing these Instagram captions at a grade-12 reading level.

And they were getting engagement! When I asked for book recs, I got them. My friends liked my close readings of Kazuo Ishiguro. NYC literary agents were using this proof of me as a thinking human being to offer me a place in the professional book world.

I think I did not fully grasp the extent to which Meta intentionally barred intelligent discourse on its platforms until now. Disagree with me if you think otherwise, since I haven't engaged seriously with bookstagram in years now, but I just do not think that reels ever get anywhere close to the intelligence and depth of old-style bookstagram.

In-depth book reviews that you had to, you know, actually read* were replaced by people dancing and screaming at cameras.

*And which you had to actually write, which in and of itself was a great exercise for me as a reader, and which served as proof that the person discussing the book had actually read the book and wasn't just being paid to promote it.

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about me

martin. male. late 20s. northern minnesota, USA. MFA in creative writing.

i am disabled and chronically ill; when i periodically vanish it's because i'm dealing with that.

open to tag games, questions and prompts, etc, i'm just slow and forgetful lol

about my work

i have three main WIPs that i shift my focus between: wizard novel, vampire novel, and alchemist novel. i typically don't name projects until they're complete.

wizard novel is a grand-scale dark fantasy trilogy with a setting inspired by medieval scandinavia about two men, a misanthropic elven mage and an aimless aging warrior, who are sucked into a conspiracy that forces them to reckon with legacies of violence, their places in a society that discards them, and ultimately what they're willing to sacrifice for the potential of a better world.

vampire novel is a young adult paranormal romance set in a small northern minnesota town in 2009 about a teenage boy who, reeling and isolated after a personal tragedy, meets a strange girl with her own dark past and an obsessive quest to retrieve something from the bottom of the lake.

my greatest influences are the nature writing of robert macfarlane, the fiction of julia fine, katherine addison, and cat valente, fantasy RPGs like dragon age and the elder scrolls, and the films of masaaki yuasa, alex cox, and jane schoenbrun.

about this blog

i don't care who follows me. this blog is occasionally NSFW. my writing contains graphic violence and explicit sex.