outside of gotham: zhao james
⋆˚࿔⋆: dead dove do not eat—psychological horror, self-harm, graphic injury, mention of blood, unhealthy and toxic relationship, dubcon undertone, captivity, degradation language, emotional abuse, manipulation, power imbalance,mdni, lmk if i miss some important tags!
superheroes would sacrifice themselves to save a world or people they love. vilains would sacrifice everything to make their loved ones happy. but james is neither a superhero nor a villain. he is a different species. he would destroy himself, anything that could harm you. even if you decided to hurt yourself in any way, he wouldn't hesitate to vanish you too. he doesn't hesitate to destroy anything to gain his own pleasure.
it's complex, but it's clear that he doesn't want anyone or anything to hurt or please you when he's the one who can be everything for you all at once.
you were only a nurse assigned to assist him back then in the psychiatric hospital. you helped him clean himself, monitored him, and gave him medicine on time, but he's unhealthily obsessed with you and despises seeing you take care of others.
"excuse me for a second. it's time for your medicine."
"you should just take care of me."
"i need to take care of others too, james."
"how do i make you focus on me only?"
that was the first conversation between you and him. he admitted to the hospital due to uncontrollable self-harm. he eventually would cut himself, smashing his head or knees against the wall every time he didn't get what he wanted. almost every part of his body was full of scars and fresh bruises except for his face. his face was clean; not a single cut existed. not until a few seconds after the first conversation. you were out of words and couldn't think of what to reply to his question. while james had been staring at the fork on the overbed table. it took him exactly a minute to slit his mouth using that fork, making you scream and tremble on the floor. it was sudden and quick because he would never think twice when the decision had already been made in his corrupted mind.
"do you still want to take care of others and not me?"
your terror-scream filled the ward before the sound of rushing footsteps belonged to nurses, doctors, and security guards taking over. james let out a sinister laugh, his cheek smudged with blood all over, staining the hospital bedsheet and his patient gown too. somebody pulled you away from the bed while the others were restraining him. james never fought back. he was just smiling for the whole time.
years passed. james isn't in the ward, and you're not a nurse anymore. instead, you're stuck somewhere in a small lodge far from your hometown, with james acting as your supervisor, or saviour, or torturer; you can't tell.
"does your chest hurt everytime you see this scar?"
james asked, monotone, as he pointed to the healed scar on his left cheek. he knows the answer but he loves to hear it from your own mouth. since you can still talk properly, no stitch or wound blocking you from opening your mouth wide to answer him.
he commanded as he patted his lap for you to sit on it. you moved slowly towards him before he gently took your wrist and pulled you on top of him. securing your body by hugging your waist using his one hand while the other was pressing the cigarette into the ashtray.
he hummed gently as a response before he took another puff from the cigarette.
"you can stop paying me."
your fingers clench at the edge of the dress hem as you think the proper way to express your words without making him mad.
"it's been years, and i'm not your nurse anymore."
james burst into a laugh, accompanied by a few coughs as he was almost choking from laughing and smoking at the same time. he presses his cig for the last time in the ash tray. both of his hands are now set on your thighs.
"i'm not paying you for that. you're my pretty doll..."
he whispers in your right ear before his hand travels lower, entering your dress.
or should i call you my pretty prostitute instead?"
james's words immediately brought you to tears.
"you can't tell me you don't like it when you voluntarily surrender yourself to me."
your tears mean nothing to him when he is an apathetic man.
he caresses your thigh gently with his calloused fingertips before he goes back to your clothed pussy, fingers swiftly enter your panties before he strokes your fold, fingertips busy finding your clit. you let out a small whimper, your body tweak everytime james fingers roam on your body.
and he loves that. watching and feeling you shaking under his touch as if it was your first time.
"c'mon now, it's not your first time taking it from me."
james cooed. you have no time to respond and james has no time to wait to do more. his other hand slid under your dress, exposing your thighs, and swiftly landed on your breasts. he squeezed them hard as he used his left fingers inside you.
you reaction and your moan only make his dick hard and hurt that james needs to pull out his shorts immediately before he shoves his dick in you from behind. both of his hands move to your waist, guiding your hips to be in sync with his movement. every thrust is followed by your uncontrollable and messy moan.
most of the time, he would do you rough so that it would make you bleed. then, he would comfort you, treat you with tenderness afterwards, help you clean yourself, and hug you until you finally fall asleep. and maybe that's why you found comfort and ease during that moment.
"you shouldn't be scared of me. it feels good to be with me, right?"
you nodded your head without letting him finish his sentence. a subtle smile was painted on james' face. he gave a quick peck on your left shoulder.
"excuse me for a second. it's time for your medicine."
the phrase sounds familiar. except you can't really remember when you heard it.