How could you move on from your ex? Like I read on your ex's blog that she had a hard time moving on?! What happened and how is it possible for you to be this happy?
I read the posts you mentioned, just to know what you were talking about. Okay so, let me try to explain.
I was the one who broke up, I had the “mean” role in this situation. You need to know that I was 18 when we started dating and it lasted until I was nearly 23. What I was expecting from life totally changed during those nearly 5 years. 18 me was a sad girl who had to deal with her homosexuality, it wasn’t an easy process. I came out at 20, it wasn’t as easy as I thought with my parents. Even though I was the one who broke up, looking back, I was happy in the relationship that I was in until nearly the end. About 6 months before we broke up, I started going out a lot with my friends, enjoying life, discovering things on my own and I also started football, which was an important thing for me.
I was finally really happy in my life. Except that I realized that I was happy even when I was alone (we saw each other like one week-end a month) and that the type of relationship I was in wasn’t what I wanted for the long term (we didn’t have the same language and even though it wasn’t a problem for her, I knew I wouldn’t ever be able to be fluent, so with the parents, it was always going to be a problem.. what about if we had kids?!).
Unfortunately, I also discovered that I had a crush on another girl. Like a real and big crush. That was when I thought “C’est le point de non-retour”. I’ve always been really honest with my loved ones, so I decided to tell my ex-girlfriend about it and to break up because she wasn’t the only one on my mind and I couldn’t do that. I have too much respect for that. After that, we kept talking for a while, but we’ve never seen each other after I got there to get my stuff back.
And how could I move on that quickly? Well, I went out a lot with my friends from school and from football, I was feeling so free and so happy, like I could do things for me, just for me. I was 23, single and discovering the gay world for the first time on my own ! So yes, I had things with girls just for fun but that didn’t last for too long because at the end of July 2018, I met the most incredible girl in the world and love just hit me in the face (and in her face). A week after, we started dating and now, 2 years after, we are living together, planning our wedding and thinking about having a kid. Life can take a turn, I wouldn’t have expected that 3 years ago, that I would be where I am now.
Am I feeling guilty? No, not at all because I think I was honest from A to Z. I’ve never cheated, I’ve never lied. I just fall out of love and it happens.
And look where I am now, I wouldn’t change a single thing of my past. I know I was happy back then, but now, I’ve found my soulmate and the love of my life. And I wish that for everybody.
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