strange fits of passion have I known

hello, another life update. im on an antidepressant, a mood stabilizer, and an antipsychotic. it has toned me down a lot in terms of mental illness and other things; i no longer constantly search for a violent release of my emotions. those things are still a part of how my mind works, but they feel manageable now. i feel more stable and in control of myself than i did when i was unmedicated. i think im happier this way

i miss my needy anons so much. come back to me, lets entertain each other all over again

we are growing quite rapidly over here! 66 of you already... unfortunately i cannot kill myself again like i did for 50 followers (iykyk), but we can make me do something else once we reach 100 followers. perhaps make me carve a thank you message into my skin? let me know <3

i love humping pillows like a dumb mutt with just enough pressure to get me all riled up and needy. i wish there was someone to whisper disgusting things into my ears

i need to get into the most brutal physical fight with someone and end up so bloodied and bruised i can barely stand. but not even winning is enough for them, because they will humiliate me further by pinning me down and fucking my guts out while i scream and beg them to stop. with each attempt to fight back theyll sink their teeth into me so hard it will puncture my skin. to shut me up, they might shove a couple fingers deep down my throat. if i suffocate, then so be it. at least i wont be fighting back anymore