i should crumble for better reasons

onision (2017): IF YOU STOP WATCHING ME THEN YOU'RE BASICALLY CONDEMNING ME AND LAINEY TO HOMELESSNESS, POVERTY, AND DEATH. I'M NOT TRYING TO SAY THAT I WOULD KILL MYSELF IF I DIDN'T HAVE YOUTUBE, BUT I WOULD KILL MYSELF IF I DIDN'T HAVE YOUTUBE. AND IT WOULD BE THE FAULT OF THE PEOPLE WHO WOULDN'T PAY ME. IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT? FOR US TO DIE BY SUICIDE OR STARVATION? DO YOU REALLY WANT OUR BLOOD TO BE ON YOUR HANDS, JUST BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T CARE ABOUT US ENOUGH TO DONATE 50 MEASLY CENTS? SOME """FAN""" YOU ARE, CLEARLY SHOWS THAT YOU'RE A FAKE FAN. MIGHT AS WELL JUST BECOME A JUDGE AND SENTENCE US TO DEATH. IF YOU REALLY LOVED US THEN YOU WOULD WANT TO GIVE US ALL YOUR MONEY. THANKS A LOT, FAKE FAN. I WOULD NEVER HAVE DONE THIS TO A YOUTUBER WHO I CARED ABOUT. OH AND DON'T FORGET TO SEND FLOWERS TO MY GRAVE WHEN I SHOOT MYSELF OUT OF DEPRESSION BECAUSE YOU WOULDN'T PAY TO WATCH MY VIDEOS.

what she means: You know what makes me crazy? I'm sorry, can I say this? You know what makes me nuts? The fact that we could be together, here together, sharing our night, spending our time. And you are gonna choose someone else to be with, no, you are, yes, Jamie, that's EXACTLY what you're doing; You could be here with me or be there with them, as usual, guess which you pick! No, Jamie, you do not have to go to another party, with the same twenty jerks you already know. You could stay with your wife on her FUCKING birthday! And you could, god forbid, even see my show, and I know in your soul it must drive you crazy, that you won't get to play with your little girlfriends. No, I'm not, no I'm not! And the point is, Jamie, that you can't spend a single day that's not about YOU