.į My interests: Star Wars, psychology, poetry, zines, Trainspotting
.į Artists I listen to: The Smiths, Green Day, Hozier, Big Thief, Dazey and the Scouts, Deftones, The Strokes, NewDad, The Cranberries, Siouxie and the Banshees, The Cure, Molchat Doma, The Clash, My Chemical Romance, Brennan Wedl
.į Films and TV shows I love (in order): All the SW films and shows (but ROTS, ROTJ, Rogue One, TCW, Rebels, and Andor are my favorites), Trainspotting, Dead Poets Society, Bones and All, Call Me By Your Name, House MD, Carmen Sandiego, NBC Hannibal, and She-Ra
.į Favorite director: Luca Guadagnino
.į Favorite poets: Richard Siken, Ocean Vuong
ā¤ I sell physical copies of some of my zines on Etsy and digital copies on my Ko-fi. All the money I make from them goes directly toward my top surgery fund, so purchases are deeply appreciated!
ā¤ I am open to collaborating on art! Although my primary mediums are poetry and zines, Iād love to work on multimedia pieces as well. Iām cool with both commercial and non-commercial collaborations. Message me to make some art together pls!!
ā¤ Iād love to talk about my interests with more people! If you like any of them feel free to message me B)
Misc.: very queer, vegan, trauma recovery/mental illness advocate, please use tone tags (it is near-impossible for me to tell tone over social media, especially during discussions/disagreements), trilingual (catalan/spanish/english)
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The first edition of the BLUE BLADE newsletter is up! Each one includes three sections: Sun (current happenings), Orbit (main project), and Nebulae (other projects in the making). It's basically a behind-the-scenes look on what I'm up to creatively.
The software I use allows anyone to view past emails in the form of posts, so you can read the one that was just delivered even if you werenāt previously subscribed.
Second day complete! I did less than yesterday because I had to cut my postering session short to give myself enough time to attend a zine event tonight. 12/22 posters are up
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Interest check for a newsletter about my zine-making and overall artistic process! (Especially meant for anyone who follows my art).
Iād love to share more about my current and past work (zines/poetry/a few other pieces of different mediums), forthcoming projects, ideas Iām expanding on, and how to support me :}
Super cool super awesome zine newsletter
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Voting ended onJun 22
(Note: I will not be using Substack as Iāve tried the platform before and I prefer non-social media newsletters)
The newsletter is up and running! I've added the link to my description, but you can also sign up here. I'll be sending out the an email about the first physical storefront where my zines are for sale (& how I'm promoting them around my city) once I have enough people signed up.
Interest check for a newsletter about my zine-making and overall artistic process! (Especially meant for anyone who follows my art).
Iād love to share more about my current and past work (zines/poetry/a few other pieces of different mediums), forthcoming projects, ideas Iām expanding on, and how to support me :}
Super cool super awesome zine newsletter
Hell yeah!!
Not for me
Voting ended onJun 22
(Note: I will not be using Substack as Iāve tried the platform before and I prefer non-social media newsletters)
This is one my favorite zines to this day despite the fact that it was only the third I ever made. I had access to some really cool stickers, images, and old rub-on letters and designs.
The topic of the zine is memory and how dealing with trauma is basically about managing memory (whether itās present or absent), and specifically in what ways memory has to be transformed.
You can get a physical copy here or a digital copy here =)
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I swam in the ocean during a thunderstorm once. Lightning and all. I was screaming into the sky and the water from the euphoria of the almost impossible moment. I was wearing someone elseās swim trunks and also I didnāt know what city I was in because we were just there for the day. I donāt even know what year it was when it happened. My love of rollercoasters is probably a subconscious attempt at returning to that feeling.
My artistic process is very scattered at the moment and Iām trying to parse through everything, but like all art worth pursuing it is kind of swallowing me.
Iāve been:
photographing street art and stickers in preparation for a zine about urban art I come across
setting up having a few of my zines for sale at a self-published and indie book/zine store in my city
writing the very long text for my largest zine yet
finishing the fruit zine Iām making to procrastinate doing the heavier emotional work of the zine above
preparing my new poetry notebook as I recently finished my last one
deciding how I want to go about retaking my drawing journey after a long while of abandoning it, and how that will interact with my other mediums
trying to start the practice of writing in my mother tongue more as opposed to always defaulting to English just because I have more vocabulary with which to express myself in the latter
Ranking Luke Skywalker's outfits from most to least gay:
1. All Black & Chanel Boots
I mean, little else needs to be said other than "Chanel Boots"... (although this is not actually confirmed afaik, it's a headcanon common enough that it's become part of the fandom's collective unconscious)
Extra gay points when the little flap is down.
2. Original Farmboy
The cleavage on that tunic combined with the flowiness of the sleeves is very gay. Even that goddamn pose right there. Luke ābut I was going into Tosche Station to pick up some power convertersā Skywalker isnāt heterosexual in this galaxy.
Extra gay points for the little poncho he added later. Obviously ponchos are gay, but also covering up to go to the cantina carries a very specific and soft queer undertone.
3. Green Training Tank Top
High-waisted pants and that tank topā¦ Him training with Yoda led to a brief twink death but I canāt say Iām complaining about his training days.
4. Atrocious and Cunty for the Medal Ceremony
The swagger with which he rocks the yellow jacket really makes it gay (especially given how the jacket itself is pretty ugly, hence the title), as well as the fact that heās wearing knee-high boots and tight pants here.
In my mind, this outfit is a retroactive reference to Freddie Mercuryās āMagicā tour clothing which also features a yellow jacket (and a yellow stripe down the side of the pants, which Lukeās also has).
5. Endor Cowlneck Poncho
Again, ponchos: gay, weāve been over this. Camo is usually read as profusely straight but he manages to pull it off.
6. Saving the Princess Stormtrooper Disguise
Thereās something about the armor that feels simultaneously very gay and straight so Iām placing this one in the middle-ish, but not above his yellow jacket.
7. X-Wing Flight Suit for not kissing Wedge Antilles
Itās standard-issue so I struggle to see his usual queer vibe, but itās still peeking through a little!
8. Beige? In the Snow??
Again, standard-issue and not the coolest-looking.
9. Mechanic Fixing the Carbonite Chamber
I see no gayness in this outfit whatsoever. This is what a straight man whoās a mechanic would wear.
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One of the captivating things about Andor's tonal grief is the places we never go back to.
Once Cass & friends leave Ferrix, we never see it again. Kenari, Aldhani, Narkina, and most hauntingly Ghorman- once the characters leave, there's no going back.
The excellent production design made these places tactile, vivid, real. And then, once the characters survive the horrors and count their dead, the places are left behind. And we grieve them just the same. When Cassian and Vel toast to their lost, they toast to Ferrix, the Dhanis and Aldhani itself.
Star Wars is a franchise that struggles to leave just about anything behind, its places among them. How many times have we returned to Tatooine, somehow the most galactically important middle-of-nowhere? It's evident in the RotJ special edition and TRoS celebration montages, and in the countless video games, comics, and series that keep finding contrived ways to return to the same five-or-so planets, even those presented as specifically backwater or secluded.
But Andor makes us familiar with these spaces, planets, peoples and cultures, and lets their stories end in potent uncertainty. And it's more powerful than seeing what became of them. Cassian's life and story is one of constant displacement and motion. We feel it.
It all comes to mind as I face my own displacement from a location and community that I loved and hoped to be able return to. My path ahead will be a change, but it looks stable. It's not the end of the world, or of my world, but it is an ending. The nooks and crannies and oddities I'll never see again. The faces and names that might be sequestered to memory. There's a bell you'd ring to mark the end of your time there, and I never did get to ring it myself.
Sisyphus learns to push a new boulder. One always finds one's burden again.
The Mandalorian and Grogu fails as a movie (thematically and character development-wise) because it does the exact opposite of this. It refuses to let anything die.
Giving Din a new Razor Crest identical to his previous one adds nothing to the story and is instead just a quick way to continue providing the homogenous image of Din we got for almost three seasons.
Almost all main and supporting characters are just cameos at this point. Zeb, Rotta, the twins, and Embo are brought into the spotlight again because creating new characters for the movie would require actual character development. (The only half-exception to this is Rotta since he didnāt have an established personality in the CW movie).
Using old characters allows the writers to rely on their previously established traits and histories. This ends up making the movie feel disjointed because a bunch of random characters were slapped together and it shows. There is no other piece of Star Wars media where I felt like the characters didnāt belong in the same story.
On a separate but related note, the emotional stakes of Andor were so incredibly high that you couldnāt help but be invested into the life of even side characters like Nemik or Lonni. TMAG just doesnāt have that because none of the characters even feel remotely connected to each other.
Grogu saves Din from lethal poison and that is met unemotively. Zeb and Din have no discernible bond over the course of the mission. Embo couldāve literally been replaced by any other bounty hunter in the galaxy and the plot would be exactly the same.
Andor made us carry loss along with the characters because as they left behind people and places so did we. TMAG doesnāt make us deal with any painful emotions whatsoever, and that feels really out of place for Star Wars, where every single film and show asks the viewer to contend with some kind of loss.
Grief in Star Wars is really important because itās what hope is backlit against. Without it nothing feels like it carries any importance.
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