My Diet Coke Adiction

i g i saw this and thought it was an ed joke for convincing yourself to fast. turns out it was just a random header for tumblr.

feels good

if anyone has some meanspo they’d like to give. i’d be so open. i need to get back on track.

today, i felt good about restricting. i didn’t have breakfast and i only had veggies for lunch. I had a garlic knot and rice cake for dinner because some of my friends and I went to get pizza. I even had enough calories to treat myself to dairy queen to celebrate my friend getting her license. overall, i feel so good and in control.

i tried to recover and I completely let me self go. I can’t go to college looking like this. I’m going to spend the summer getting back into shape and loosing weight.

we all know. we all know that you sneak that extra slice of bread or that little treat after dinner and don’t track it. you think it doesn’t matter because it is such a little thing. well, it’s not a little thing. we all know that it is the reason you still are so big. if you can’t even stick to you plans or restrictions, you don’t deserve to be skinny and pretty. it’s not just going to happen, so put down the sweets or the bread or the extra serving of dinner and work it off, or don’t expect results.

i am so skinny. i am so skinny. i am so skinny.

i was just about to make some meanspo. is there any specific things y’all want to see. i love meanspo and how it keeps me on track so i want to do that for others.

july 2022

i tried recovering for a bit, but i have just gotten to a point where i hate my body so much and am willing to suffer for one i can like. This was kind of set off by getting a bunch of old clothes from my aunt from when she was younger and some of them being so small. both my mom and her sister were twigs when they were younger, and i am so fat. i have a belly and my thighs are gross and flabby. This will hopefully get me on track to loosing that weight quick. Plus, i miss the feeling of being hungry and having control. i want that back.