shawn peter raul mendes

ok it's been some days since I met him and I haven't been able to write about it bc it's been quite the sensitive topic but you guys have to hear about my m&g experience meeting Shawn ( great...I'm already crying ) 4 years ago I feel in love with a boy in a red SnapBack as he sang in a 6 second video. His name was Shawn. That video ended up changing my life forever. I've seen our baby live 3 times ( now in total), and have seen him grown into this beautiful person. And when I got m&g I cried like a baby. I couldn't believe it. Well..months turned into weeks, weeks turned into days and those days turned into hours and now, I was standing behind the curtain hearing his voice. This was it. I was going to meet the love of my life. All the crying, all the breathing problems, all the times I couldn't breathe from laughing all lead up to this.... I WAS REALLY TRYING HARD TO KEEP IT TOGETHER. They told me it was my turn and I walked in. Guys...I'm not lying ...He looked like a porcelain doll. AND HE WAS SO TALL LIKE SHIT I KNEW HE WAS TALL BUT ODHHS. And his eyes where even more beautiful than I could've ever imagined. He said "hi" and it was the cutest thing. I can't lie to you, the first thing I did was say "OH MY GOD" out loud because my brain couldn't handle making the sound inside my head. He smiled widely and opened his arms as I hugged him tightly. He put his arm around me and asked me if I was ready ( which I wasn't ) and now that I listen back to the recording I heard that he had let out a adorable laugh. I was in such a state of shock that i couldn't even move. I wanted to hug him tightly in this photo but I couldn't do it. I don't know why. They took the photo. But I wanted to leave an imprint so before I left I said "before I go I just want to say how much you mean to me and that I really love you" with the most shaky voice ever bc I was trying not to cry and he told me that he loved me and pulled me into a hug and I lost it. Then he said "have fun tonight" and I had to sadly leave so I replied with "thank you, you too" and they escorted me out of the room and I just LOST IT and laid down on the ground and just cried. Geoff saw me, He was about to approach me but someone called for him so I sadly couldn't meet him :( ok now I'm actually crying so hard writing this igtg