House Spirit

Anyway BPD is an awful and evil and consuming and self-destructive illness that will drive you to loathe your entire being so much that you feel like 1/8th of a person. It will make you not feel like you are worth the same as people around you because you’re abusive and nasty. It’s a constant cycle of saying “I’m worthless because I’m awful, I’m awful because I’m worthless”. BPD is not an illness that should be romanticised by people without BPD. You can’t sit there and say “people with BPD are so brave and loving and they will give you their all” - because if you actually had BPD you would understand the reason you give your all is because you feel guilty for existing, guilting for breathing, guilty for taking up space, guilty that other people have to look at you, guilty that somehow you are manipulating the people in your life purely by being alive. BPD is tiring and consuming and will ruin your whole life so stop trying to say that this illness is secretly a gift.

The reason why borderlines get so upset over our favourite person showing love or caring about others is because of how we perceive caring and love. To us, caring about our favourite person means giving our entire heart to them. Making our life completely about making them happy and adoring them as much as possible. And we can only give ourselves so completely to one person at a time. So when the favourite person then expresses caring or love towards someone else, we perceive it as them offering themselves completely to that person and that they don’t care about us (since we think that you can only care about one person at a time). And that’s why we get so hurt by it. Not because we’d like being mean and jealous, but because we genuinely feel abandoned and unloved when it happens because we don’t understand normal caring or love.

“support people with mental illness, unless theyre showing symptoms. then just ignore them till they stop and turn back in to the person you know” fuck off

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a couple people have suggested I reblog some older spidey comics to my lovely new followers so i GUESS i’ll take their advice. here you goooo.