CapsizingYourHeart

Had a few good years out on my own, but it didn't last long

Had a couple good friends, we used to pass the lonely days together

Made a little bit of money and I got stoned and I let it all go

All I want is a noisy crowded place where I can drink

Spent my whole life looking back and wondering who I was

Something changed the day you left, and I'll never know just what

Spent my whole life looking up and wondering who I am

Something tells me you and I will never meet again

I'm gonna see if I can live outside the lies of my body and mind

I'm gonna see if I can find time to sit and wonder why forever

If I need a little money I'll sell my soul though it isn't worth much

Wanting it to be different

Wanting someone else’s life

Hoping there was another version

Somewhere wishing to be me

When will I want what’s mine?

The yearning of things not yet to come

Will forever haunt me as they are lost in the void

Looking in the mirror lately

With tear stained cheeks

And soul to match

Can I release from the latch?

I try to enjoy what’s been given to me

I try so hard to envision that this is it

I won’t get another life

But if that’s so why am I constantly left with

Wanting, yearning, hoping

Nostalgia for things I’ve never tasted

I hope there is purpose mixed into

The sadness that was mixed to make me.