butch who acts nice towards me but secretly thinks about all the ways they want to scare and hurt me, butch who fantasizes about all the things theyβd do to me every-time i act sweet or nice towards them, butch who imagines what my moans sound like every time i open my mouth to speak to them, butch who daydreams about me constantly getting off on their lap while iβm rambling about something completely innocentβ¦ butch who gets hard at any sudden touch from me even the accidental ones, butch who takes my flirting as a sign i want them to fuck me and thinks of all the ways they can make me squeal and beg and cry and whine and and and