melody

labels are a big joke to me. i like writing poetry, but i am not a poet. every time you give yourself a title, you’re expected to fit perfectly inside a box and write perfect poems instead of having fun with words and writing something that is pretty and meaningful to you (by no means meant to satisfy the masses). this applies to almost everything. call yourself a singer and you’re expected to have flawless execution of all registers and styles and technique. people don’t exist to be judged or accepted. we exist to do what we enjoy without a care in the world. imperfectly, freely. it’s a shame to see artists having fun and expressing themselves in the spotlight and someone wants to jump in and criticize the imperfections of their work. what the fuck is wrong with people. as someone with insane anxiety and self-doubt it makes me so fearful to even TRY to put myself out there and make my creations because people can be so cruel and love pretending to be geniuses who have a right to comment on other’s abilities and deservingness of success. life is a journey for us all and we are not meant to match the standards of others or overcomplicate our own methods just to fit into the norm and be warmly welcomed. i pray i find a community that is supportive and uplifting when it comes to my passions where i don’t feel so intimidated to make a mistake. i cannot live my life so rigidly believing in a “right” or “wrong” when it comes to artistic pursuit.

project fear <3

saturn’s prominence has taught me and will continue to show me that slowness doesn’t mean wrongness, and that hardship doesn’t equal loss.