Perfectly Imperfect

#IWantedYouSoSoBad #HopeDeferred #MyHeartHurts #PutItOnAShelf #TryNotToFeel https://www.instagram.com/p/ByWJP_xlE63PJrsW9t24ExBrMPebZL0pJEoR3A0/?igshid=lqu0hwe3p4ux

It's been a good day #HappyFamilyDay #WeStillMissedYou #HEH (at Birmingham Botanical Gardens) https://www.instagram.com/candie_shell/p/BvGEvb0lZDIDpN68sAbyufueqsQrlntIIpRulM0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=8vq9klaacl46

I'm just wandering... when is it supposed to get easier? #HopeDeferred #HEH #Broken #Void #NumbOneMinute #ExcruciatingTheNext (at Alabama) https://www.instagram.com/candie_shell/p/BvDT11pFek1rVjkziMYRLSxMzAmcQhj82TwnEY0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1kykoqhsy9qq1

😭 my heart hurts.... #HopeDeferred #HEH #ImNotOk #ImTrying #Broken https://www.instagram.com/candie_shell/p/Bu-S4kVFSfjVf9WVYU_7I2CGUpAzttpBTt4UIg0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=6prk3kvcfile

Hold us too Jesus 😭. We're still broken, still sad, still grieving. We are a little numb, a little angry, a lot lost. We don't understand. We know we never will. We know you're holding our miracle conception but that doesn't make it easier that we won't. At least not today it doesn't. #HopeDeferred #HEH #TodayItStillHurts #IWantedYouWithAllMyHeart #WaitingAndTryingToStand #Promise https://www.instagram.com/candie_shell/p/Bu6ZOsuF_W-R_zjO_nVLYEpOFSjZisfw2Nh1Cw0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=94s086tyqf82

Joe, me and Kamryn all have the flu. Kamryn and I also have ear infections. Thirdly, Kamryn has strep and I have an Upper Respiratory Infection. We are quite the messed up family lately. #CantCatchABreak #Weary #RakedOverTheCoalsLately #QurantineIsntFunWhenSick #NoSchoolOrWorkTillThe18th https://www.instagram.com/candie_shell/p/Bu2NNiol4sOc7mVQzJnYxhDYYloxWP3ns_SiYM0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1sbw1ki18kb5m

Help me Jesus, help me to get to here. #HopeDeferred #HEH #AllThatIsWithinMeCries #KeepWalking #EverythingHurts #ImTired #ImWeary #ImWorn (at Dodge City, Alabama) https://www.instagram.com/candie_shell/p/BuwuPOYFEmfcNwvMvEOETYYCr3HrkPtdX37EaI0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=3ot3ewyz0w69

I was ok tonight... until I wasn't. Sometimes people share memes or statuses or pictures or quotes and they have no idea who they are crushing.... without having any cruel intent at all 💔 #HopeDeferred #HEH #ILYSB #KingOfMyHeartSpeakPeaceNow (at Battleground, Alabama) https://www.instagram.com/candie_shell/p/Buk0F_1lZnJdQuhcsedsx4dy2iQneVa5yvQDks0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=fbkl1gcpjqqd

Panic and seizures...seizures and panic 😭 #HardNight #HopeDeferred #Fighting #HEH #GreatFridayNight (at Battleground, Alabama) https://www.instagram.com/p/BufdHN4lCw50kU4IXDFF8L_aG7vz1yiEBD0eXE0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=149ztm0ywyxtz

#HopeDeferred #HEH #TakeMyHand (at Dodge City, Alabama) https://www.instagram.com/p/BueHlFblXTnw3UfKlb7Uv24VKDjnwv7KSj4joY0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=yf9got8kghh2

Rough... rough night. I'm leaning Jesus.... I'm leaning #HopeDeferred #HEH #BrokenHeart #Greiving #Fighting #HopingToWin #SometimesDrowning #NoseTreading #TryingToTieThatKnotBRD #ReachingForTheHem (at Battleground, Alabama) https://www.instagram.com/p/BubUwC0FxOBH4baf_C87PlBX5OTkJEhJ0q09Xo0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1tsy8zl4j78iv

"You can't be somewhere you not. Give yourself permission to just be where you are....then you can figure out where you're going". I needed that more than you know Little Brother. I love you! #HopeDeferred #HEH #KeepWalking #OneStepAtATime #RealFeelings #Valid #WisdomBeyondHisYears (at Battleground, Alabama) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuYLrxJF4OCIH6U_QHwATJ1BjAuLSMCQjEtXOM0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=waajo251o7fd

You will in my heart sweet baby. #HopeDeferred #IWillAlwaysWantYou #IWillAlwaysMissYou #YouAreLoved https://www.instagram.com/p/BuWJyCTl7PjETQmZA0_lUWrFRtLCfdRU9vQRZo0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=fxbp9zyh86rf

.... In the deepest part of me #HopeDeferred #HEH #SweetBabyGumDrop (at Dodge City, Alabama) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuT3gKtlMdJaZvkMhkb2agUOj5-Jb1hvv5NcqE0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=fasnq9sdr80r

......... #HopeDeferred #FromTheFaintestPinkLine #WeWantedYou #WeStillDo #Empty #Broken #Lost (at Alabama) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuSpkSNFd2GUw8_c4x92c64HI66TrbndtEtXE00/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1lic6fqcziwu3

#HopeDeferred #Empty #Broken #IKnowWhereYouAre #ButIWantYouHere (at Alabama) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuRRWMTFASSKEU8CxdeEVIUijeD2V16rikCAVY0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=6ylq60x6f360