falling out of love at this volume

it's thousand yard stare summer

the concept that for Matt somewhere in some small little piece of reality he never had to grow up and he never had to get serious about anything and he can just live in his cushioned lights down low endless sleepover fever dream heaven with Jay his whole life and that actually it's that version of himself who will get to live forever...oh I'm going to be sick

thinking about what he said in the pete holmes interview about how important it is to him to connect his stories to old mythology and then how pete goes “it makes you feel at home on the planet” and matt goes “RIGHT! exactly.”

a slaughterhouse. an outlet mall. slot machines. fear of god. you know the usual