(Real quick, I'll be referring to Jax with He/Him pronouns in this post. Not as disrespect but simply because within the show he never makes the transition to female or neutral pronouns. I only found out yesterday that Goose confirmed Jax as transfemme, but if this does upset anyone I will gladly fix my mistake! I'll also be discussing sexual harassment, mentions of suicide, and discuss racism and my experience with it) I saw the Amazing Digital Circus finale recently and. like. I've genuinely just been so disappointed by all of it. I've disliked Jax since They All Get Guns, and it only evolved into genuine hatred in the last episode. Because so many things about this finale pissed me off and the way people are defending Jax is the biggest. I'll go through the two things that pissed me off the most: Jax and the use of Isn't She Lovely. First, one thing I've seen when it comes to Jax's little fantasies about the others abstracting is that they're just intrusive thoughts. As someone who personally struggles horribly with intrusive thoughts from OCD (specifically Taboo OCD which I've recently started getting therapy and medication for), I think we should make a distinction here. The National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) classifies intrusive thoughts as sudden, unwanted mental images or thoughts that are repetitive. They are typically startling, often distressing, and run contrary to a person's actual values or desires. Jax strangling Pomni is, to me, not at all an intrusive thought considering this does not go against his character at all and he has never once hesitated to harm another member of the circus. There are many examples:
Strangling Pomni isn't something I see Jax hesitating to do at all. It would not distress him and he would not hesitate. Especially with how he 'plays it off' in the fantasy as well by laughing at her for being distressed. I was honestly very shocked there was no disclaimer for that scene, it was genuinely upsetting and sudden and I don't want to sound sensitive but it could've been triggering to someone.
I also think his harassment of Gangle is not an intrusive thought either. And seeing people treat his bizarre sexual harassment as a Ribbun ship moment gives me the worst feeling in my gut. It is not cute. She's actively manic in that scene and grieving someone Jax seems to think Gangle loves (considering his fantasy where Gangle abstracts has Zooble claim she was the only person they loved). Along with Jax just blatantly mocking Zooble's gender identity at their own funeral. I can genuinely believe that Jax would've harassed Gangle like this if Zooble wasn't around.
In general, I think the framing of this finale doesn't condemn Jax like it should. He drove Ribbit to suicide, because abstraction is treated as suicide. He is revealed to be, in his own thoughts, a violent person who enjoys tormenting other people. And I feel like his talk with Ribbit was supposed to make me feel bad for him, but I don't. He is not the only person in the circus to suffer, but he is the only person in the circus to take it out on everyone around him. Pomni hugging him really took away any potential theme of "there's no excuse for hurting others" there could've been in here. I'm definitely considering making a post comparing Jax and Ted because there's a lot in common here but Ted is actually more interesting to me.
Everyone putting Jax in his tent and Gangle crying for him pissed me off so bad. It just came down to a "bully was bullied actually" thing, except Jax didn't even force out an apology as Pomni was hugging him. He couldn't even be bothered to apologize and instead was whining about how she's not supposed to care about him, GET OVER YOURSELF. Pomni is a whole other can of worms but I will not be touching it because I don't want to.
The use of Isn't She Lovely actually took me from "disinterested and not really feeling anything" to actually fucking incandescent though. And some of the defenses I've seen of the writers taking a song about Black joy from a Black man about the birth of his daughter? They piss me off so bad. I don't care if the song was picked because it's being "reinterpreted for Jax being transfem", I don't care I don't care I don't care GET OUT OF MY HOUSE. It IS THAT DEEP. You can't just DO THAT. And the man who covered the song is associated with 'anti-woke' creators which is just racism with fancy wording. Now every time I try to search this song I'm just going to be assaulted by TADC, thanks Goose. Also, a song written by a Black man being chosen sits so poorly with me personally after everything that's come out about the cast and Goose herself regarding their less than savory "Nega" jokes.
I genuinely don't understand how 'Nega Angel' was funny, or the black shirt with 'Nega' on it. "Hahahaha 'Nega', it sounds like a slur" I was literally called "Nig" throughout middle school because, and I quote, "You're only half black so we won't call you the whole thing" and a pair of boys would split it between themselves with one calling me "Nig" and the other calling me "Ger". A slur isn't funny. A word sounding close to a slur isn't funny. It's lazy, hateful, insulting, and Ashley, Michael, and Goose should be ashamed because they are and were grown adults. I don't see how a word being close to the N-word is funny, because I've had words that were just shy of the N-word said to me while people put gum in my hair since I was 12 til I was 14. Maybe I'm just being sensitive, but I do think there are good places to tell race jokes like in South Park or the Boondocks. I get that people can grow and change, but Goose didn't even apologize for the nega thing, and then they appropriated Stevie Wonder's beautiful song for his daughter and put it in a fucking AMV montage about an abusive asshole who is so miserable and can't accept himself that he feels like hurting others is acceptable because it's all "fake". Jax feels like the kind of person who'd abuse his Norns in that weird 90s game Creatures.
I honestly just can't believe I drew fanart of this show and was excited to see where it would take me and how the characters would grow and then I got the fucking Jax Show featuring Pomni and Those Other Guys. What a fucking disappointment.












