BEAR WITH ME

I keep having these nightmares with you in them ugh

I just want to know why. What did I do to deserve this?

Hi, it’s me again just checking up on you. Just know that you are trying your best and I hope you realize the truth. Please confide in yourself and follow your heart but also your mind. Think clearly and always be patient and understanding. Never stop loving because we are all hoping that this too shall pass.

i haven’t been this way in a long time. i’m here but my mind is elsewhere.

I got home safely. Thanks for your fucking concern.

It’s the first day of winter and I’m feeling more cold and lonely than ever.

I’ve learned so much from you in the last 7 months. I’ve grown to become a lot more understanding and patient. I learned that I’m always loving despite how wrong you treat me. I’ve realized how important communication really is when you’re in a relationship - or at least something that resembles a relationship. I’ve learned to speak up about what’s on my mind rather than bottle it up inside and wait for it to explode on you. You may or may not really love me back, but at the end of the day I’m always going to care for you no matter what happens. I don’t know what’s in store for us these last few days before the end of the year, but I only hope for it to be “as bright as our future” as you once said. I’m not sure if this is a “preparing myself for the worst and saying goodbye” post or whether it’s just another one of our problems that we’ll get over. You’re the only person I’ve been with for this long, and I’ll love you dearly despite what happens.