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Feeling lonely and lost. Everything makes me want to cry. I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to. I want to start again. 😪

Halfway through episode 3 of Making a Murderer, eating my second lot of peanut butter toast, still have to finish packing for my holiday tomorrow but at the moment this seems more important!

Tonight music is making me worse. The lyrics are bringing back memories and feelings that I haven't fully recovered from. I don't like that I'm home alone while I'm feeling this way. Alone in my mind and alone in reality, what a perfect match for a night of crying.

Send me asks, home alone and bored! 💤

Oh my god there is seriously something wrong with me. I'm going away for 8 days, leaving town in 2 days. I've spent the last 20 minutes frantically googling if you can wear thongs to the theme parks because im worried about what shoes to pack. I've already got a pair of runners, converses, thongs and sandals. But my sandals are new and I don't want them getting wet, so I could change them to an older pair of sandals, but then I won't be able to wear and enjoy my new ones. Why do I complicate my own life so much over such small stupid things? Any wonder my boyfriend gets so annoyed at me some times..

I have been to the gym every day for the past 7 days. I'm in the middle of an internal argument on whether to go today or not... Is 8 days in a row too much? But have I done enough in those past 7 days to count? If I don't make up my mind soon it'll be after work hours and it'll be packed with people.. The day that I am carefree and easy on myself will be a fabulous day.