guac

➠ hi i'm guac aka callslips on AO3 and bflottie on twt! <3 (i have pretty much abandoned twitter, but i repost things!)

➠ I AM: 22, mixed poc, transmasc (he/him), and my favorite color is orange!

➠ there will be nsfw posts, minors please dni with those! and terfs dni with ANY content.

➠ i specialize in non-canon compliant works (EVERYTHING has got to be an au with lottienats...)

as someone severely outmogged i am not in the position to judge either contestant. they are both gorgeous and i would probably do something that would put me on national television to get to meet courtney eaton again. add soapy to the equation and i'm number one on the most wanted list.

oh god yj tiktok is like 14 year olds with zero media literacy why did i write a think piece for them... they probably wouldn't even be able to comprehend it

this ragebait

i just know it came from yjtwt and in that regard i wouldn't even give it the time of day but this is genuinely perplexing me so lets dive into it

lottienat antis will come up with more reasons to dislike lottienat than they will to support their own ship but this is the first i have ever heard of a 'grooming' scenario and honestly, as usual, it strangely pinpoints lottie as the bad guy

i do wish i knew what sect of yjtwt this was coming from because i could easily determine from there why they're targeting lottie but alas i'm going into this blind

i'm going to tackle this from a teen timeline pov and an adult pov because i don't know what timeline they're arguing from.

teen timeline: GROOMING WHERE? no, like, i'm genuinely wracking my brain. They butt heads the entire time and legitimately never see eye to eye so it can't be that? I don't know what defenses they're using for grooming in this timeline so i'll try and think of one? maybe the blood tea? but even then there's reluctance/disbelief on nat's part. so.... where's the grooming?

adult timeline (i'm going to heavily emphasize that these are adults, meaning they have a greater concept of their own autonomy and when they're being manipulated): yes, lottie kidnaps nat, who is on the brink of ending it all. if you want to call saving someone's life 'grooming,' have at it. now we reach the commune, where lottie does make some... choice decisions, in the best interest of nat. do i think this has reached anywhere near grooming status? no. we begin to see nat heal, and i believe this is of her own volition. you can't groom a person into forgetting genuinely traumatic events; lottie is simply guiding nat through them in a therapeutic way. when nat credits lottie with having saved her life, that is not grooming -- it is just genuine, empirical fact. so, no, even in the adult timeline i see no signs of grooming. you can forgive someone for past trespasses and not be 'groomed' into doing so.

i'll leave it at that as i'm busy, and because if i guess which sect of yjtwt is targeting lottie my inbox will blow up.

As a closing statement, I think it is absolutely absurd to use a topic as severe as 'grooming' to discredit a FICTIONAL SHIP of all things just because you don't like it. if you don't like lottienat, cool, ignore it. don't bring in an actual, terrible practice to bolster your point which, in this case, is hanging on by a thread (if even that).

there is a very real agenda to demonize lottie and this just feeds into that. my opinion? ignoreeeee. i hardly doubt those calling 'grooming' could even support their own stance with examples from the show.

sorry if this is long-winded, but as a lottie akgae who has time and time again witnessed the POC, mentally ill, equally traumatized character be painted as some sort of antagonist i had to say SOMETHING.

i need someone to drill the masc lottie vision into my head while keeping canon attributes of her... because i definitely have the time to write two frat boy lottie fics and i think i generally keep her gender neutral?

like i don't overly feminize her especially when fitting her in the frat role (i don't have to because her character isn't inherently femme imo) so i think the same would go for masculinization?

like... it would be laughable for lottie to be a dudebro, but in the same breath going out of character that much would kill a very real part of me that strives to keep their canon components in alternate universes...

it can also be pwp transmasc nat x transfemme lottie... it's been a minute since i've written them

fleabag au has hit its 15k mark and i'm halfway through... it has come so far

valerian self-indulgent au requires so much world building the fic would legitimately just be for me and my fantasies

PWP CAN'T BE MY BRAND

(or you can leave something you'd like to see in my inbox...)

if you're curious:

here: i watch you taste it, i see your face

the other one won't link but it's: i'm on my knees

the first one is DIRTY. i was so unmedicated writing both of these.

it's like i have two wolves inside of me.... one on vraylar that only occasionally can manage pwp and one where i skip my vraylar and flood the transmasc nat/transfemme lottie tag

i also have like 3 supercorp fics in the works that i'm actively ignoring in lieu of giving lottienat my full attention, especially when S3 gave them NOTHINGGGGG.

with that said i will probably write a lottienat t4t oneshot next 🙇🏽‍♂️ when the right premise strikes! i'm actually more interested in exploring their dynamic these days than simply digressing to pwp... though that will likely always be a component because t4t lottienat smut is chef's kiss.

the only purely psychosexual movie i can think of in recent history is babygirl, which teetered just close enough to the edge of cringe that i couldn't finish it. what i did witness definitely fit the bill though.

i just wonder if those emotions could be displayed through words... and if so if i can manage to do so even if it kind of departs from my niche.

and, in what setting? what ship? (honestly i think agathario would fit well.)

i'm just thinking out loud. this probably won't even happen for another two years knowing me. it's so interesting though!

i just saw mother mary, a psychosexual thriller, and i was like - dude... fuck yes. there's a really high possibility i'm being too ambitious, however.