mixer2themax

Yeah, sure, I probably should've done this before posting my first ever Tumblr post, but shh 🤫

Hey there!! You can call me Mixer, pronouns are preferably he/she but "they" is fine too :]] I'm a minor. I draw and write a lot but commissions are not for me sorri :[[

My latest and most loved fandoms right now!!:

-Ride the Cyclone

-Be More Chill

-Dear Evan Hansen

-A Good Girl's Guide to Murder

-IT [I do not support Stephen King]

-The Amazing Digital Circus

-kiiiind of Percy Jackson [and co]??

-One Wheat Mark [not Stranger Things]

-Scott Pilgrim

-DC

-Spider-Man [not Marvel]

-The Hunger Games

-musicals in general [I think]

My favorite color is orange! In the school I'm in, I'm a Creative Writing major :]] I'm very confident in my writing and uh yep I think that's it?

Oh!! I'm a genderfluid/boyflux abrosexual [female preference]! My favorite theater actor is Will Roland, my favorite music artists are Will Wood, Cavetown, Jack Stauber, some bands like Hot Freaks, The Strokes, Paramore, and blah blah other stuff, and my favorite authors are Suzanne Collins and Holly Jackson.

Chapters: 2/? Fandom: Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

  Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

  Relationships: Evan Hansen/Jared Kleinman, Past Evan Hansen/Zoe Murphy, Evan Hansen/Original Female Character (one-sided)

Characters: Evan Hansen, Jared Kleinman, Original Characters

  Additional Tags: Angst, Light Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, friends to strangers, Strangers to Friends, Friends to Lovers, what kinda freaking development is this LMAO, Trans Evan Hansen, it’s really minimal but I love that headcanon so it's there, Bisexual Evan Hansen, Pansexual Jared Kleinman, Autistic Evan Hansen, Jared Kleinman Has ADHD, Autistic Jared Kleinman, Soft Jared Kleinman, well.. if you squint a little, implied mental health issues, as implied it can get in DEH bro, alternative universe - college/university, Alternative Universe - Roommates, Jared Kleinman is Bad at Feelings, Really really bad, Aged up characters, Communication, wow! can't relate!, Jealousy, i guess, Texting, well that was fun goodbye!

  Summary:

“I'd rather not talk about this.”

“Oh.” My throat closes up. It's okay. It's fine. He might just not be ready to say anything. It's not. I shouldn't. “O—Okay. That's okay. But can we— another time? Do we— can we talk about this another time?”

Jared inches away from me, resting his back on the headboard of his bed. He flashes me a strained smile. Maybe that's just his smile. I can't breathe. “Not exactly counting on it, but sure.”

  [Evan Hansen has anxious attachment issues. Jared Kleinman has avoidant attachment.

Nothing could go wrong, right? Right!

His senses are way more heightened than they're supposed to be. Or maybe that's how it's always been, way before the SQUIP fixed helped him. Maybe his clothes have always felt too suffocating and itchy, and maybe he needed new glasses in the first place. Perched on his nose, too light. Too heavy. Too wrong. Too right. Too normal. Too weird.

It's made perfectly for him. He's perfectly himself. He hates it.

Jeremy hates the SQUIP. Jeremy hates that the SQUIP left. Jeremy is scared of the SQUIP. Jeremy is scared that he'll mess things up, now that the SQUIP is gone. Jeremy is scared that it'll come back, and things will go wrong again. Jeremy is glad and is sad and is disgusted and is relieved and is confused about the fact he's Jeremy again. Jeremy is Jeremy. He's human. He's himself. He's making his own decisions and trying his best.