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It's hard to deconstruct. I had so many friends that I thought loved me dearly.

Now that I am deconstructing and reconstructing my faith it seems like they don't know how to interact with me.

I grew up Lutheran until the age of 14. (my church made me feel extremely uncomfortable because I am a lesbian.)

From age 22-31 I was Pentecostal, trying really hard to not be gay because I thought it was bad, and that showed through to my mental and physical health.

At age 32 I am now attending a "post evangelical" church. I am happy with who I am. I don't have to hide anymore. I have been told I look healthier and happier.

I guess the point of posting this is to say that you should never give up if you are going through a rough time. God has a funny way of working things out sometimes, but they always ALWAYS work out even if they don't seem like they ever will in the moment.

Be yourselves, friends. (Unless you do bad things, then change that shit.)

I'm sick of my family. I'm sick of a lot of my friends. I'm sick of morals and human rights being labeled as "political".

I just want somewhere to rant and maybe make some friends who feel the same. Or maybe I can help someone with my experiences and limited knowledge. Who knows.

Anyway..

Enjoy the nonsense.

Love,