we must try to find some small joy in this life because it is actually all we have

its called “ocd” because when you realize you have it you go “ohhhh crap… damn…”

don’t take my defeatism too seriously I will always begin again and again no matter what

I might sound miserable most of the time but at my core I’m a very hopeful person

[one single bloodcurdling agonized scream] ok time to lock in

life can be different than what you once planned or hoped, but even better than you imagined in other ways. it can hold disappointments and regrets, but still be so beautiful and full of goodness. you carry grief and sadness with you about certain things, but still experience so much joy