Gonna start doing a daily blog thing. Might as well. Anyways, this last week I've been getting consumed with my feelings for my friend. Tonight imma probably get tipsy enough/drunk enough to go talk to him about it. I am not sure how the conversation is going to go, but I'm like hella nervous. I kinda already know nothing will ever come from it, and it's probably just something I'm going to have to deal with. But I kinda learned something from the last year, I can either face my feelings, or hide from them and just spiral. I guess it's just nerve racking cause it's kinda me coming out. After I post this, imma go text him to see if he is down to talk tonight or something. I'll go post about what happens after. I've kinda grew feelings for him when I met him, and gotten to know him. He's sweet, smart, good looking. I guess it's hard to admit, but Im not as straight as I've always made myself out to be. Boy, this is gonna be one of those crazy nights to be honest. Well, I hope my conversation goes weird, and the result of it is such that me and him can stay friends as we are. I know we can, it's just gonna be a little difficult. What I am hoping is that he is down to continue to work with me through this, since it isn't going to be easy.
















