Caffeinated Chaos

L̵̲͈̋ě̴̠̠͝t̸̨̜̦́͘͝ ̶͚̝̜̈́u̵̗̬͙͑s̷̼̣̍̈́ ̶̥̈́̀̂ͅĭ̸͍̈ǹ̶̲̤̭̚.̶̻̩͛̏̌

No tricks, I promise.

Ok. Breakfast. Talking. That sounds fine.

L̵̲͈̋ě̴̠̠͝t̸̨̜̦́͘͝ ̶͚̝̜̈́u̵̗̬͙͑s̷̼̣̍̈́ ̶̥̈́̀̂ͅĭ̸͍̈ǹ̶̲̤̭̚.̶̻̩͛̏̌

No I didn’t. I got mad over losing a stupid match and I pushed you. And I left you alone and that’s how he got to you. I let this happen and I’ve been a terrible friend and I’m sorry just please, please let’s fix this together and it’ll be okay.

You’re not a terrible friend. You’ve nothing to apologize for.

Yes. Yes I am. I’ve felt myself slipping and getting angry again like I used to and I’ve done my best to not let it show but sometimes it DOES and I abandoned you and we didn’t talk because I was so scared I’d snap and I just kept telling myself it’d get better, it’d get better and I was so scared you’d be upset with me because I lost the tag titles or because I got those title shots instead of you and I didn’t want you to hate me for it and it’s all gone so so so so wrong and I can’t let him control you the way someone controlled me. And it’s all just...so much.

Nikki...you don’t need to do this to yourself. Come over for breakfast tomorrow and we can talk, okay?

L̵̲͈̋ě̴̠̠͝t̸̨̜̦́͘͝ ̶͚̝̜̈́u̵̗̬͙͑s̷̼̣̍̈́ ̶̥̈́̀̂ͅĭ̸͍̈ǹ̶̲̤̭̚.̶̻̩͛̏̌

No I didn’t. I got mad over losing a stupid match and I pushed you. And I left you alone and that’s how he got to you. I let this happen and I’ve been a terrible friend and I’m sorry just please, please let’s fix this together and it’ll be okay.

You’re not a terrible friend. You’ve nothing to apologize for.

Yes. Yes I am. I’ve felt myself slipping and getting angry again like I used to and I’ve done my best to not let it show but sometimes it DOES and I abandoned you and we didn’t talk because I was so scared I’d snap and I just kept telling myself it’d get better, it’d get better and I was so scared you’d be upset with me because I lost the tag titles or because I got those title shots instead of you and I didn’t want you to hate me for it and it’s all gone so so so so wrong and I can’t let him control you the way someone controlled me. And it’s all just...so much.

L̵̲͈̋ě̴̠̠͝t̸̨̜̦́͘͝ ̶͚̝̜̈́u̵̗̬͙͑s̷̼̣̍̈́ ̶̥̈́̀̂ͅĭ̸͍̈ǹ̶̲̤̭̚.̶̻̩͛̏̌

No I didn’t. I got mad over losing a stupid match and I pushed you. And I left you alone and that’s how he got to you. I let this happen and I’ve been a terrible friend and I’m sorry just please, please let’s fix this together and it’ll be okay.

L̵̲͈̋ě̴̠̠͝t̸̨̜̦́͘͝ ̶͚̝̜̈́u̵̗̬͙͑s̷̼̣̍̈́ ̶̥̈́̀̂ͅĭ̸͍̈ǹ̶̲̤̭̚.̶̻̩͛̏̌

No. YOU get out of MY friend.

I’m still here, Nikki.

Oh. Okay, that’s...good. It’s a start. Now we just have to undo whatever he did to you and get things back to normal. All better. Like nothing ever happened like it’s still how it was before I messed it up, okay? We’ll get there.

L̵̲͈̋ě̴̠̠͝t̸̨̜̦́͘͝ ̶͚̝̜̈́u̵̗̬͙͑s̷̼̣̍̈́ ̶̥̈́̀̂ͅĭ̸͍̈ǹ̶̲̤̭̚.̶̻̩͛̏̌

No. YOU get out of MY friend.

I’ve had someone manipulate my thoughts and my demons and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. And I won’t let it happen to my friend.

It’s NOT wonderful! It’s terrible, she’s in trouble, he got to her and I WASN’T THERE TO STOP IT.

We think it is beautiful… at last…

It’s NOT. I can’t believe you’re encouraging all of this!

It’s NOT wonderful! It’s terrible, she’s in trouble, he got to her and I WASN’T THERE TO STOP IT.

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Better fix her hair and keep walk-in’ because I’m in no mood for BooBoo the Fool and dollar store Harley Quinn.

Maybe if somebody had actually taken out the psycho clown she wouldn’t BE like this.

If he has a problem, he can stop playin’ with puppets and do somethin’ otherwise I don’t give a fuck about him or what he wants to do with others.

Then try not giving a fuck about any looks she might shoot you.

Better fix her hair and keep walk-in’ because I’m in no mood for BooBoo the Fool and dollar store Harley Quinn.

Maybe if somebody had actually taken out the psycho clown she wouldn’t BE like this.