Mental Health

Why is it that I seem to always be the one people become indifferent towards. Why can't there just be consistent friends. I'm not talking about needing to talk every single day, but damn, it'd be nice to be able to actually have a proper conversation. I've tried checking in regularly, I've tried including them, I've continued investing and it just feels like I'm throwing everything down a bottomless pit. And they say "life just gets in the way". Meanwhile I carve out time in my life to prioritize them. Why can't an ounce of that be returned consistently. I don't mind putting in the majority effort, but it'd be nice to see some level of reciprocation.

Idk man, I'm realizing this might be a pattern and it always sparks a major depressive episode. I've had so many episodes at this point my life is falling apart. I never had enough time between them to fully recover and put my life back together again before the next one hits.

Im getting better, I think. But my lows are still pretty fucking low. Tough to be an inspiration to others when you keep realizing the new depths of just how broken you are. Broken more like a broken toy that a child throws away.

I don't think I look half bad carrying a baby 😇😊

This made me tear up. Wow. This was a video released by the Ukranian president today. I couldn't help but post it in support of him, and his country. Stay strong, and keep up the good fight! 🇺🇦