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hey so my name is jake!! i’m a blasian trans gay dude and a while back i was diagnosed with hashimoto’s thyroiditis (an autoimmune disease that makes my body attack my thyroid for presumably no reason). so on december 15th, i had the surgery to get rid of my left thyroid lobe. during surgery, they found that my left lobe had 3-5 cancerous tumors and they removed my whole thyroid instead of just half. (the pics above are all the proof i have atm due to the fact that we haven’t gotten the paperwork back from the hospital)

so, long story short i still have cancer in my system, which is why i need to go through radiation therapy for it. due to the fact that my medicine (levothyroxine) can promote cancerous cells to spread & duplicate faster whencombined with the radiation therapy (don’t ask me how i don’t know) my surgeon told me that i should stay off of my medication so that my cancer doesn’t spread to my lymph nodes… and the lymph node cancer 5-year survival rate is only about 25%… which is really fucking scary

but the thing is: i can only survive 21 days without a thyroid and the horomones the thyroid gives, and my surgery happened 5 days ago.

i really cannot afford therapy, we can barely afford food rn. the surgery & numerous doctors visits that got me here took $13k+ from us, and radiation therapy will take at least another thousand from us and we really can’t do that. so unless i raise at least another 2k in the next few weeks, i’ll either die or be forced to deal with more cancer in my system which will inevitably kill me.

tl;dr: i have 16 days to raise $2k+ for post-cancer radiation therapy or i might actually die.

paypal: https://www.paypal.me/T4ROT

cashapp: $jibbletz

someone on twitter had the idea to donate to dding dong in jonghyuns name, a korean organization helping out at-risk lgbt youth in korea. they provide food, community, activities, counseling, prevention, medical care and more and they want to raise enough money to become a full time shelter. i think he would have loved the idea. so if you feel like it, here’s the link:

https://www.ddingdong.kr/

to my dearest jonghyun,

you were in pain. you were hurting. you were in pain and hurting and upset and lonely and sad and many other things as you passed on. you were also an amazing singer, talented songwriter, an outstanding human being, an integral president in the shinee world, and a father to the sweetest little ‘roo’. although you are no longer on this earth, your legacy, your love for people who needed help, your love for music, your overall essence, will remain long after. you, kim jonghyun, gave shawols, sm, your family and everyone in this world a piece of your heart through your talented body and we can never repay you for your selfless services, even if it did cost you your own happiness in return. the sweet voice that enchanted many will forever play on, and the songs you wrote are eternal. we say goodbye to your physical presence, kim jonghyun, but never to your soul, your heart, your very being. you were in pain. you were hurting, and now you’re free. so i say goodbye to you, kim jonghyun; insole wearing, puppy-pokemon hybrid look-a-like, crybaby, always-so-extra, kim jonghyun. may we meet again.

your sweetest,

an eternal shawol.