this is my blog for yapping with moots! sometimes conversations get reallyyyy long from all the reblogs and i dont want people to have to scroll through that so that will go here now!
╰┈➤ 𝒕𝒂𝒈𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒐𝒐𝒕𝒔
so if you want to see all of my interactions with a certain person, just filter by their tag!
(lmk if you dont wanna be here, or if you’re my moot but you’re not on here! i’m really bad at staying on top of stuff like this lmao, trust me, i encourage you to tell me)
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MC is born. Their mom is 18 and their dad is 21. They got married, but only after they found of MC’s mom was pregnant.
MC’s mom dies in a car accident when MC is 18 months old.
MC’s dad remarries very soon after. MC’s step-mom is called mom. Their mother’s existence is completely erased.
MC is in 4th grade. One of their classmates comes out as trans. They get relentlessly bullied. It’s so bad that their family moves away soon after. This is MC’s first exposure to transness. It stirs something deep inside them, but they bury it.
MC is encouraged to straighten their hair. Every. Single. Day. “It's our mom daughter bonding time!”
MC gets their first phone when they’re in 6th grade and learns how to delete search history. They look up what trans means. They delete the search and try to forget about it.
At some point, book bans are happening at MC’s school. MC’s parents take some books from them. MC asks about it and is exposed to their parents' transphobic opinions. The book bans make MC really angry but they don’t say anything about it.
MC is in 9th grade. The academic pressure they face is ever mounting. A classmate gets outed as trans. They get assaulted. Their parents aren’t supportive like the trans student in 4th grade. This student gets kicked out of their house. Nobody sees them ever again.
MC does more research. They start to feel like maybe this is them. They discover the term nonbinary. They’re in denial for months.
It is summer vacation before 10th grade. MC wants to die every time they wear a swimsuit. Maybe I am trans. Fuck.
10th grade. MC starts to notice all the ways that transphobia leeches through their community. They’re scared. Coming out never even crosses their mind, and they make sure to do everything they can to make sure there is absolutely no way they could ever get outed.
MC and BSF are 15 and on their yearly vacation with their family the year before 11th grade. They can’t go to the area they usually go to, so they end up in a more liberal area. One day while MC and BSF are walking around some shops, BSF goes to the bathroom and MC looks at a trans pin. They really want to buy it, but before they can, BSF is suddenly behind them and asking why they’re holding it. Later that night, MC kind of comes out to BSF. BSF says something along the lines of “you know you’re a girl though. I won’t tell our parents cause they wouldn’t understand like I do. But it is just a phase, right?” MC says something along the lines of “yeah, I don’t know what I’m thinking. I’m just making it up. Haha.”
11th grade. MC is taking the SATs. The stress is killing them. They hardly ever sleep, they start having anxiety attacks. They hide it all.
One of the only other Black kids at MC’s school gets assaulted. They get in trouble for fighting. None of the white kids who beat them up face any consequences.
MC gets their SAT results back. They’re average. Just average. MC gets yelled at by their parents. MC walks out and goes to BSF’s house. They confess everything, the anxiety and depression, the fact that they really are trans, that they hate their life. BSF tries to comfort them but doesn’t really know what to say.
MC goes home and goes to bed.
MC gets woken up by their parents. Their parents ask them if it’s true that they’re trans. MC says yes. “Oh come on MC, that’s absurd. We can get you help. We’re sorry for putting so much pressure on you. Let us help you see that you’re not trans.” “I am. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” Argument ensues. MC is told to get the fuck out. “Go pack a fucking bag and get out. Just be thankful we’re not dumping you on the street. It’s for the best. This is what you need to see the way.”
MC packs a bag and desperately goes to BSF’s house. “You told them. Why the fuck would you tell them? They fucking kicked me out. THEY KICKED ME OUT.” “You… you needed help. I’m sorry.” BSF pulled away from the door by their parents. “Please leave MC. BSF doesn’t want to see you.”
MC gets in the car and drives. They drive until they’re out of the town, out of the county, out of the state. Motels, sleep in car, eat cheap gas station food, drive, drive, drive. Not far enough away. Keep driving, just keep fucking driving. Look at that, you’re in the pacific northwest.
MC has no idea what to do. They’re basically out of money, a high school drop out, depressed, anxious, and alone. They’ve stopped straightening their hair every day for the first time in years. It’s starting to get matted because they don’t know what to do with it. By chance, they saw a sign posted asking for help in a fire watch tower. They drive to a trailhead. They hike all day. They reach the tower and find it inhabited by an Afro Indigenous 30 something year old. “I’m here about the sign. It said lodging and food provided… I’ll do whatever you need.” “Well then. Welcome in.”
MC adjusts to the daily life of living in a fire watch tower. The older person points out a far off forest fire.
Late one night, MC comes out to the older person. The older person explains to MC that they’re Two-spirit and queer. Before this, the older person had offered to help MC with their hair. MC said no. It’s been brushed out and held back by a bandana, or in two messy cornrows. The next day, MC asks the older person to show them how to wash their hair. For literally the first time since before their mom died, MC takes care of their hair properly.
The forest fire is growing ever closer.
The older person makes a routine supply run into town. This takes all day, and while MC is alone, they fall asleep.
While in town, FWTP gets arrested. It turns out that MC’s parents didn’t expect them to actually run away. They expected them to come crawling back later that day, the transness eradicated from their body, ready to repent. When this didn’t happen, they told the police that MC had run away. MC’s car was eventually tracked and they asked around town until they found out where MC was. They then waited for FWTP to make a supply run to arrest them. Their next mission: go to the fire tower and take back MC. However, their plan goes to hell as the combined conditions from the nearby forest fires and a lightning strike cause a fire very near to the fire tower.
Back in the tower, MC is woken by this fire. They try to leave, but they’re freaking the fuck out. It’s so hot and there’s so much smoke and they can’t find the path to get to their car and they’re going to die.
Meanwhile in town, as the town evacuates, the police/MC’s parents are freaking out about the fire. FWTP is calm and tells them they need to go to the fire tower to get MC out of there. A police officer, MC’s parents, and FWTP get there just in time to rescue MC. They have some pretty bad burns, they’ve inhaled a lot of smoke, but they’re alive. They all get the hell out of there.
MC is in the hospital. A (white) social worker is assigned to the case when MC (reluctantly) tells the police that no, they did not run away, they were kicked out. The social worker is shit. Not helpful to MC at all. It’s looking like MC is going to be forced to live with their parents again until they’re 18.
FWTP is still in custody, partially because they were arrested, partially because the fire tower was burned down and they have nowhere to go.
MC is in the hospital room with their parents. They talk, they actually talk. MC just begs their parents to listen. They explain how all the transphobia has made them hate themself their entire life. How their hair was literally fried off every single day just to make them more palatable to the white people they were forced to live. How they know for a fact that they cannot trust their parents anymore. They beg them to let them stay with FWTP. “You don’t want me.” “Of course we do. Stop being ridiculous. We love you.” “You don’t. You really don’t. You kicked me out. You found out who I really am and you dropped me immediately. You smothered who I am from the moment mom died. From before then. You don’t want me. Please, please, please let me go.” It works. MC finally manages to get through to them. And they agree to let them stay with FWTP.
MC is permanently disabled from the fire. They still have no idea who they are. They still have so much to work through. But they have somebody who loves them. They survived. Maybe nothing is ok now, but it will be. It will be ok.
got inspired by @toastghost85 and his stupid chud periwinkle fineliner so i cracked open mine and used it to draw kieran in a muscle tank ft. my wonderous highlighters and my trusty 03 fineliner
Also there's frogla manisa and a humanized!frogla because idk i felt like it
AND THEN!!!!! FITZ STUDIES YAYYYYYY bc i was still somewhat unhappy w how i draw him so i tested a few combos (as you can see) and you can TELL that one of them is obviously wayyyy more Fitz than the others lmao he was missing zest i think. im happy now!
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ty for the tag!! this is gonna be very fun!!
m - Monster by Dodie OR Malfunction by Steam Powered Giraffe
u - Unknown / Nth by Hozier OR us (live acoustic) by aeseaes
d - Dreams and Reconciliation by Scott Buckley OR Dr. Dan (Nothing At All) by The Real Zebos
o - Other Side of the Moon by Halfy & Winks OR Our Last Summer by ABBA
b - Bob Loblaw by Bear Ghost OR Bitter Medicine by The Crane Wives
l - Long Time Friends by The Living Tombstone OR Little Little Microchips by Bear Ghost
i - I Talk in My Sleep by The Crane Wives OR Intro by C418
s - Saint Bernard by Lincoln OR Scars by The Crane Wives
obviously I'm very indecisive bc theres two options for each letter
a lot of these songs have origins in animatics or fansongs or songs i relate to or songs that make me nostalgic or something. or sometimes its just a song i like lol. Guess if you want lol
Anyways! Imma jsut tag all my moots!
@callm3kyu @evilrat-sabre @rindrawsstuff6254 @kazuallyobsessedwithsoc @bakedpotato232
R- rises the moon (Liana Flores)
A- Astronomy (Conan Gray)
Y- Youth (Glass Animals)
N- Naked, The Night Falls (The Crane Wives)
I- Inkpot Gods (The Amazing Devil)
L- Little Lion Man (Mumford & Sons)
I- If I Killed Someone For You (Alec Benjamin)
K- Kid And Leveret (Yaelokre)
E- Enchanted (Taylor Swift)
S- Sunrise (PowCreations)
C- chain reaction (ALINA)
A- Against The Kitchen Floor (Will Wood)
T- Tears in your eyes (MICO)
S- Souvenir (boygenius)
@ababelofviolence @twinklefwinkle @ilkolinial @ultralazycreatorfan @deardajeong and yeah that’s all I can think of rn I ain’t tagging more than that I fear
T - Tous les memes by Stromae
W - We'll Meet Again by The Ink Spots
I - It's Me by ILLIT
N - No Surprises by Radiohead
K - Kiss It Kiss It by Renee Rapp
L - Lovesick by Laufey
E - Enemy by Imagine Dragons
F - Falling Behind by Laufey
W - Wet by Dazey and the Scouts
I - I Ain't Worried by OneRepublic
N - Nerve by the Destroy Boys
K - KGB by Adela
L - Love Me Anyway by Chappell Roan
E - En nuit by Videoclub
are we fr...that was a lot of letters TvT and I have to TAG PEOPLE TOO NOW
im gonna try not to repeat any artists so i might have to dig a little for some of these
b - Back to the Old House :: The Smiths
u - Uptown Girl :: Billy Joel
m - Moonage Daydream :: David Bowie
b - Bohemian Rhapsody :: Queen
y - Yesterday :: The Beatles
l - Little Lamb Dragonfly :: Wings
b - Build Me Up Buttercup :: The Foundations
e - east side :: Lyn Lapid
e - Everywhere Everything :: Noah Kahan
I'm announcing a project I'm working on this summer. I'm writing my manifesto*. It's going to be quite the process, but I'm very excited about it and I wanted to share some information about it here.
*manifesto is defined as "a written statement declaring publicly the intentions, motives, or views of its issuer" by the Merriam-Webster Dictionary (link). This fits what my plan is, but for now it's just a working title that is very subject to change.
soooo... what is this?
[ plain text: soooo… what is this? /end plain text ]
I often find myself in situations where issues that I care about come up and I have (at least some) of the information I need to argue my point or inform others about my opinions. However, I often do not have all of the necessary information, and no reliable sources to back me up. In order to both further my own education and to unlearn my internal racism, homophobia, ableism, misogyny, fatphobia, etc., and to engage in the community around me through educating others on these issues, I’m going to do in depth research on the wide range of issues that I care about.
I'm really excited about doing this and any feedback or suggestions or anything like that would be oh so appreciated.
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I haven't even clicked on the emoji part of the keyboard and I already know I'm cooked
👌🙏💔👆🎉
So my summer was normal at first then I got kidnapped into a Facebook mom catholic group that hates praying emojis with red sleeves, I'll get my heart broken because I devoted too much time into the Facebook cult and willingly agree to use my heart as an experiment, I go up up up but it's just a mad of nothingness and I realise death is boring so I go through 1000 trials to be resurrected just in time to confetti to pop into my face right as school starts and I realise I should've just stayed in that nothingness for a while longer
doodle batch I've been procrastinating posting for the last week and a half!!
from left to right:
Fitz!!!! except thats like. not fitz at ALL lmao i fucked him up really bad bc i experimented with his nose and hair (curved and straight just dont look quite right to me...his hair should be as straight as he is). + kieran mention bc this is kieritz if you squint
1 minute pen doodling of Dexter (oc dex for those unaware) because after 4 straight years of drawing him the muscle memory is so intact i could draw his hair with my eyes closed lmaoooo
nerd kieran with an unnecessarily bright sweater vest bc thats the only color i had on me
face thing that was cool (i <3 my highlighters)
@winchester-snoopy @camriluvsmacandcheese OLIVERRRR THE BOYYYYYY he looks so young and rookie here but i wanted to attempt a more classy/old fashioned look almost? very very light dps inspo if you squint
my son my boy frogla manisa (also in the oliver pic but he gets his own bullet point bc hes special)
this ones the oldest in the batch, it's me reflecting on the 3 (?) nights in a row I spent staying up till 2 am with @tgeacemace because we were writing the Descendants AU + talking about shit
I FINISHED AN OUTLINE FOR THE STORY!!!!!!!! there are some pretty big gaps that need to be filled but honestly it's a lot more progress than I've made on any previous idea so I'm hyped about it.
some background info: Julian just turned 18 years old. They do super well in school, they have loving parents and a great best friend, and everything is perfect. Except that Julian is trans and closeted as fuck. At this point, they live somewhere in the new England region of the US in a boring suburban town that's extremely white and upper middle class and all manicured lawns and white fences and pools and it is the worst.
outline under the cut. any feedback or anything would mean a lot!
Early college applications are due, and everybody expected Julian to submit early applications. They didn’t. They’re hiding a rapidly worsening mental crisis caused by burnout. They tell everyone they just wanted more time to work on their essays to make sure they’re top notch.
Regular college applications are due and Julian missed them. The deadline has passed, and there is nothing they can do. Their parents are pretty fucking mad, Julian is having the freak out of the century, in which a massive identity crisis is included. During this crisis, they confess to their best friend that they’re trans. Bestie is like EW i mean who said yeah that’s cool but I mean you’re still a girl basically what the fuck is wrong with you no that’s cool uhhh funny story i need to go. Bestie tells their parents who in turn tell Julian’s parents.
Julian’s parents are pissed. Not an ounce of acceptance, but plenty of disgust and rage. Get the fuck out of my house, I won’t have you living under my roof. The only not terrible thing is that they have some money. They go to the bank to withdraw all the funds from their UGMA/UTMA account which results in a very angry phone call from their parents even though they can’t do anything about it because the money is legally Julians.
Julian doesn’t know what to do. They stop by their best friend's house. Bestie is home alone and Julian finds out that they told their parents and absolutely blows up on their best friend. They expect an apology, or maybe even an offer for Julian to stay with them. Instead, bestie just looks guilty and mumbles an insincere apology before closing and locking the door.
This is the final straw for Julian. They look around and it feels like the prison that is suburbia is closing in all around them. They cannot be in this fucking town any longer, not this county, not this state, not this time zone. They drive and they don’t stop driving.
At some point, in some random town they’re stopped in for the night, it’s raining really hard and Julian is walking somewhere (to buy some stuff at the grocery store or back to their car maybe) and some stranger gives Julian their massive yellow raincoat.
Julian is a chosen name and there is absolutely a moment of hey this town is called this it’s my name now
Julian arrives in Washington state and then they see the ocean and suddenly, it’s all a little bit more ok. They’re far enough.
Julian ends up in a Town. They’re living out of their car, trying to find work of some sort because, well, they’re an adult now, they have no family or friends, and they need to live. Despite how bad it all is, they NEED to live.
Julian gets work at a nature reserve of some sort. State park, volunteer work at an organization, working with the local native people, something similar. Either way, it leads them to meet somebody, thirty something years old, visibly queer and VERY proud of it.
Julian continues to struggle to survive as they keep getting phone calls and texts from their family and best friend because they can’t muster the strength to block them and as they start to unpack the heaps of internalized transphobia lurking inside them and learn to accept themselves.
This is helped by the new family Julian slowly starts to develop. So far the character concepts I have are the thirty whatever years old one, an older (50 something) couple that’s a Black trans woman and a Two-spirit person who have the most spectacular gardens, and a little kid who thinks Julian is the coolest person ever.
Resolves with some event that parallels something that happened before everything went bad showing how much Julian has grown and how things fucking suck but maybe it’s not completeley impossible for them to get better.
@lichenbu @in-a-mello-mood @delusional-joe @sylvere @bumbylbee @heartattackinblackdye @i-hate-you3000 @the-compost-corner that's everyone i could remeber if i missed you it was an accident it's currenltly 1 am i need to sleep i am tired thank youuuuuu
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cbdkxnskznwkeke I'm so sorry it took me this long Y-Y
Thanks for the tag :P
Ye thieves
Two smiski (a thumbs up and a moneycat)
my Japanese bullet train bandaids
A sailor money magnet
A she'll tortoise magnet
Two scrunchies with secret pockets
A fake cockroach
Voting ended onMay 20
@raewantscoffee @the-one-and-only-piper-offical @inthehousethatalwaysrains @lightsabersandbluecookies @thedogbard @shenanigan42 @thatchaoticbookworm @fancysheepnacho plus open
EDIT I MEANT SAILOR MONKEY MAGNET
NOT SAILOR MONEY
MONKEY
Also shell tortoise not she'll 🥀🥀 autocorrect the things you do