(he has no navel and is envious)

food allergies are so fun bcuz you can get in a state for months where you're fine and you kinda forget about the life threatening condition thing and yknow you almost buy into the "haha cant eat peanut butter" thing n start to feel embarrassed asking for accommodations until something hits you out of the blue like ok sorry for trying new things I'm going to the hospital! my allergies aren't super severe but people need to get more serious about food allergies now. cause not only do they lock you out of cultural experiences (breaking bread with people, branching out into different dishes/cuisines, going to new places) and come with some stigma, but companies generally dgaf about keeping things clean. but it's weird to talk about in the lens of like marginalization and justice because its a food allergy. and its like, we could so easily make it a non issue. you can't like solve racism or misogyny by pressing the antibigotry button but if we had some solid food manufacturing regulations with good enforcement we could solve like 90% of the problem. but thats not "profitable." its enough to drive one mad.

obviously it's racism but it boggles the mind how many white autistic ppl genuinely say they can't listen to rap as if it's not the most sonically pleasing genre out there (in general obv it varies from artist to artist) hearing samples n beats n rapping all have these different rhythms n syncopations n all the wordplay like ah it's so nice... it scratches an itch in my brain in the best way

got deltarune on steam sale and it took me like 4 days (of sessions of like half an hour i wasnt like. that horribly bad) to beat jevil i was sooo frustrated but now i can replay chapter 2 (funny) and then. i can play the parts of the game that r new to me. yay!

tried to listen to some new classical music while writing but i cannot focus on anything else during medtner's piano concerto 2 that toccata is unreal how did he do it

think about mercedes threehouses again (as I am wont to do) and I might be responding to absolutely nothing but I think I saw some post years back about how unrealistic certain characters joining crimson flower was but even if the post doesn't exist I want to talk on this. anyways ik mercedes' whole thing is a love of the church but I think it discredits her to imagine she'd never join edelgard's war we really do not know what her theological beliefs are and there's certainly like so many different schools of thought. she might have her doubts about the sanctity of the archbishop. she might be fire emblem protestant. she might dislike the opulence of the church she might be a fire emblem poor clare. i know she has so much going on under the hood but she doesn't tell anyone cause sometimes growing up in an abusive household will do that. it didnt do it to me i love to share everything but ykwim. and i think this holds without her ever figuring out that her brother is the death knight too. again i would kill to see what edelgards manifesto was cause like. if im mercedes and crests have ruined my life and all my friends lives and i have spiritual qualms against the central church that i know better than to vocalize like damn maybe i would join the war. i think mercedes is so interesting like i don't think she's underdeveloped but i do think she could be developed so much more

while the excommunication of the sspx is kinda bare minimum and I don't want to praise pope leo too much for, again, the bare minimum, it is at least nice to see him take action. however I do think it illustrates the contradiction at the heart of modern catholicism, the ideas of vatican ii just dont work with the doctrine of evangelism. I understand new evangelization but I just don't think it'll hold nor do I think it's ethical (especially as an apostate myself lol). but genuinely I think the church has to in order to continue (and to earn my favor which is important because im important) has to completely reject "spreading the gospel" but they won't, so splinters like the sspx will continue to pop up and leo and his successors will have to play a frantic balancing game to keep the church together until they get fat pope thin pope'd into some guy who overturns vatican ii. but that's my opinion as again an apostate of many years without formal theological education (or really much informal theological education lol)

my kingdom for a new i-sef u-sef release or happening upon more music like his I mean ik a few experimental artists w a similar soundscape but his stuff is honestly one of one man I love the bassoon

it was such a wonderful day yesterday thinking fire emblem was making a really cool new character w strabismus and middle aged goth swag before learning that he was a virulently racist missionary today. like the good times are over but they were so beautiful while they lasted

need to lock in and play deltarune already before I get spoiled on whatever alfyn greengrass' twink cousin is up to