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“no, no. don’t close your eyes.”

His hand reaches out ever so slightly, but stops short of touching his brother’s own. While he wants to give the younger a reassuring touch, he knows better, he knows how Aoba feels…all too well. “Would you like me to make you some tea?” 

Something warm would be nice. He is still too skinny for it to be healthy and he’s often cold as a result, even in warm weathers. 

❛ Stop walking around like a fucking cliche. ❜ ❛ Are you never letting in again because you don’t want to get hurt? ❜ ❛ You don’t want that… believe me. ❜ ❛ It’s really lonely. ❜ ❛ I’m asking too much aren’t I. ❜ ❛ I just miss talking to you. ❜ ❛ You used to tell me all your secrets. ❜ ❛ Would you like to hear a secret now? ❜ ❛ I heard that you and _______ talked about ________. ❜ ❛ Then you turn it and do the other side. ❜ ❛ Anyway, you seriously have to get over it and start behaving like a human. ❜ ❛ I’m hurt because you never reply to my meme.  ❜ ❛ I had totally forgotten. But I’m sorry about that. ❜ ❛ Are you kidding? What does that mean? ❜  ❛ Why should you be bus leader? ❜ ❛ I can never host again. Never. ❜ ❛ Wasn’t it real nice this weekend? At the party? ❜ ❛ There were a lot of new nice people. ❜ ❛ If you think immaturity is charming, sure. ❜ ❛ Do you think that is a bit generalizing to say? ❜ ❛ Why are we talking about _______ anyway? ❜   ❛ What’s going on with the two of you though? ❜ ❛ How much do you want for it? ❜ ❛ It’s sort of… not the entire truth. ❜ ❛ I can join the bus if you need people. ❜ ❛ They don’t need the money tomorrow. We’ll fix it. ❜ ❛ How are we supposed to fix that? ❜ ❛ You got to read a book I’m reading called, “The Secret.” ❜   ❛ You know so much about the universe? How? ❜ ❛ I’m very interesred in the universe. Like plants and such. ❜ ❛ You’re my star, did you know that? ❜ ❛ You’re mine. You’re my sun, the sun is a star. ❜ ❛ If you think I would walk around like some living trophy, you’re terribly wrong. ❜ ❛ Don’t play dumb! You know what I mean! ❜ ❛ What’s your name again? ❜ ❛ I think there’s a small miscommunication here.  ❜ ❛ If you think I look at you like some trophy, you’re wrong. ❜ ❛ What an awesome guy/girl you are! ❜ ❛ Were you never validated as a child, or…? ❜ ❛ Did mommy never compliment your drawings? ❜ ❛ I see what you’re doing. ❜ ❛ You don’t know what your talking about. ❜ ❛ Jesus Christ, this is a hashtag. What the fuck!? ❜ ❛ Is it me you were talking about? ❜ ❛ I’m going to nap. ❜ ❛ Did you… ask all your classmates to take care of me?  ❜ ❛ Holy fuck, you’re a bad liar! ❜ ❛ Huh? I’m a bad liar? ❜ ❛ I’m the fucking master of lies! There’s no one who is a better liar than me! ❜ ❛ You have no idea what I’ve gotten away with! ❜ ❛ Well, tell me. What have you gotten away with? ❜ ❛ I like seeing you laugh. ❜ ❛ Had you seen me before that first… cuddle meeting? ❜ ❛ You… you can buy them anywhere. ❜ ❛ I was thinking to just maybe stay there for a while. ❜ ❛ Just take it one day at a time. ❜ ❛ You have to establish your social future. ❜ ❛ We’re on our way to a party. ❜ ❛ I can hear what you think. ❜ ❛ I think it would be easier for you to spend time with people like yourself. ❜ ❛ So, when do you finish today? ❜ ❛ Why did you do that? ❜ ❛ Why not? What is it that she/he wants? ❜ ❛ Control me? How can she/he control me? ❜ ❛ You’re fucking hot, _______! ❜ ❛ I’ll give you a hint. ❜ ❛ I don’t fucking know! Just tell me. ❜ ❛  What, am I completely unattractive or what? ❜ ❛ I’ll gladly volunteer if you want to fuck. ❜ ❛ What the fuck did she/he mean by that? ❜ ❛ Don’t be rude! ❜ ❛ Who are you though? Are you, like a bouncer? ❜ ❛ Why would I have your phone?! ❜ ❛ They’re not even my shoes!  ❜

           ❝ you could enjoy a life running from morphine – from trip && i , personally – for as long as you live . ❞

“No...I...” Aoba swallowed hard before continuing in a small voice, “I’d... I’d stay here.” It killed him a little inside to say those words out loud, but it wasn’t as though he had much pride or dignity left anyway. 

“Its okay Aoba, I’ll be fine.”

“There, there, Aoba-san,” came Virus’ voice in that mock-comforting way of his, “We are so proud of you for how far you have come. Perhaps you could teach Mizuki-san a thing or two.” 

Aoba from DRAMAtical Murder. Mun is 29 and has 10+ years of rp experience. Feel free to reblog or like this if you’re interested and I’ll have a look at your blog. :) 

              one hand swirled around a glass of wine while the other gently twirled a lock of aoba’s hair around his finger . ❝ you’re so cute , aoba - san ~ are you used to this yet ? you’ve been quite obedient lately . though i suppose you’ve always known running would be useless . ❞

He didn’t know if Virus truly wanted an answer, but if he did, there really was only one thing he could say. “....Yes,” he murmured, tensing even at the gentle touch to his hair. He knew all too well how quickly something gentle could turn into something rough and harsh.  

Take as long as you need. And never feel bad about having to drop something with me, if you need to. Its okay. I will always understand!

                   hello everyone , it’d be wonderful if you could preferably reblog this to help out a new virus from dramatical murder ~ 

— John Mark Brown, from “Jesus Wept,” published in Cosmonauts Avenue