What do you do when youāre burnt out from your life?
I work hard and hustle every day at my job. I take extra clients, do extra cleaning/duties, deal with areas of work that arenāt specifically my job for the sake of teamworkā
I get to my days off and just want to sleepāBut I also have to start my cleaning routine.
I want to have fun, but I canāt have too much because I work tomorrow and I should try to rest.
I have constant requests, interruptions, questions even on my days offāSo I never really stop working... Ever. But if I donāt take those issues up on my days offāI get buried in them on days when Iām already busy at work.
It never fails that I get questions from acquaintances, not even family or friends, at weird times of days asking for advice or if they can get bookedāAs if I donāt already spend enough time looking at my schedule and having anxiety attacks all week.
It affects my home lifeāIt affects how I feel about myself, because surely someone who has their shit together doesnāt feel overrun All The Time, right?
The nature of my job is that Iām unappreciatedāPeople take my knowledge and skills for granted, and not just my clients either.
I feel like a failure at home a lot of the time because itās hard to keep up with the housework when your whole body just wants to stay in bed. Itās hard to have a relationship when you constantly have to run social media to drum up business and fight for your right to get paid what youāre worth.
Burn out is rampant in this profession, and I feel it in bursts of painful depression...
I set timers and say, āJust do this for 15 minutesāGo clean the kitchen. Move the laundry around. Sweep and mop.ā I hate it though, honestly. I hate feeling like I HAVE to do itāBecause if I just let myself lay in bed, maybe the house wouldnāt get cleaned this week, but itās also not just going to burn down or disappear if I neglect it for another 7 days, but Iām scared that Iāll start a cycle that I wonāt be able to stop and eventually itāll be a hoarding situation and Iāll never get it figured out.
There has to be more to life than burn out and obligation and Iām missing out on a lot of it. I always miss out.