spine - pasha
cheekbone - roscoe
neck - pidge
metacarpals - varla
teeth - giddy
PASHA spine. when do they lose their backbone, what scares them ?
being trapped, as pedestrian as it is. animal trapped, that's a problem, where it looks like something good. like the job that's gonna get you level, or like love if you squint. that makes her hands shake. the notion that she might get snagged and locked up in some place or with some person where they leech all the good, and the bad that's feeding the good like that good bacteria, right out of her. they take that dumb, tired question she faces all the time, what is the matter with you?! and they make work out of it. they turn her body against her. and worst of all, worst of all, no one comes to pick her up. no one tries to break her out. nobody believes her when she tells them that it hurts. she sees it sometimes, out of the corner of her eye. she was lucky to get out the first time.
ROSCOE cheekbone. what makes them smile ?
contrary to everything you and i and everyone else knows about him, a full house. fucker like this always ends up in a crowd, you know, whether it's the proctor property in massachussets with all his dozen half siblings, or the vermin and poetry filled lofts of alphabet city in a pile of likewise tramps, or his current place where the volume control of giddy rosenstock and pasha novak combined make a crowd between them. you can black sheep all you like, but the intoxication of the ramshackle family unit never really leaves you. he doesn't need to feel responsible. he just likes the noise, and the sharing cigarettes, and the smell of bad-to-okay cooking. plus, what's the point of threatening to kill yourself if no one's around to hear it. once you kick heroin, you really do need a small audience for that kind of thing.
PIDGEEN neck. who taught them to speak up, or stay silent ?
nanny joyce, naturally. the big woman, the top dog of the joyce family. all and sundry go through her and if she's not happy, all and sundry will hear about it. if she was happy, they'd hear it even louder. the common misconception about traveller women, that they get loud only to cause ruction. there were certain things pidgeen was taught in her rearing, alongside the rest of her cousins, among them where and when to clip their voices. keep quite enough and off to yourself in the pub, in a restaurant, up the shops 'cause if you open your mouth you'll be thrown out for what you sound like. that in it, if some settled feen tries to see you for a fool, bear down. which is grand when gettin hollered at out the window of a car but less so in someplace like school. even less so when it's your own people you've to stand up against. wrecks the head, really. she still can't get that balance quite right.
VARLA metacarpals. do they ask for help or clench their fists and bear it ?
forged in the fire of pearls scattered on the stairs and every showgirl for themselves, there is no world where varla clark seeks outside assistance. it's old hat, that whole thing of never being able to make yourself vulnerable in showbusiness or in her business, but the hat is one size fits all and never goes out of style. varla has seen and sneered at too many women propped up on all kinds of handouts from all kinds of people, only to get wrung out regardless. if you can't do it alone, you can't do it. is what she keeps telling herself, anyway.
GIDDY teeth. what lasting mark do they leave on others ?
god, not one that hurts, he hopes. a little confusion, maybe, a malapropism or a kindness that kinda didn't really need doing but he did it anyway. but nothing that hurts, he hopes. he did enough of that all on accident and took a chunk of his brain out making sure he'd never be able to do it again.