Jazmini💕

My male friend told me I looked high af cause my eyes were sunken and asked if I was ill😭also my bf said he’s very worried about me…he showed me a pic of me from last year saying he wants me to go back to that and that it’s his favorite picture of me??babe that was me at my HW no way in heaven or hell am I going back there😭🤲🏽

I’ve come to a point in my Ed where I’m genuinely scared for my life. I’ve gone through a lot of phases in this disorder but none like this. I’d wake up eat, restrict low count and log everything down to my water intake then after 3-4 hours I feel guilty and eat not necessarily a binge but I eat and eat…weigh myself and pxrge I pxrge until I get dizzy and my throat feels scarred and gets red then I weigh myself again happy to see I’m back to my morning weight then finally I take an unhealthy amount of laxatives I’m talking 34 tablets all at once…the next morning ofc I shit my brains out but I’m happy cares I’m at a new lw…I know this is not healthy but I can’t stop