If in the end we are all going to die

At least once a week I think about Taking my life

I want to walk into a forest and blow my brains out

I’ll make sure it’s a place where I’ll never be found

I feel lonely and forgotten

This feeling will only grow as I age

The only reason anyone knows I’m alive

Is because I post on my Instagram page

But beyond the screen, I don’t feel seen

You don't know what You Want

Childish Love

Doesn't she know that you are at Home

Didn't you tell her, the night is Ours

Laying Face up, Facing My Guilt

Preserving my Modesty

Under Warm Sheets

Lies my Nude Body

Hiding from Gods View

I'd go to Hell if he Knew

I want Mundane Pleasure

Closing my Eyes, Trying to clear my Mind

Making the same mistake

I made at 21

Was Called a Puta so much

I finally Become one

Hoeing is a habit

True love,

Never had it

I want it,

But it’s not for me,

self-sabotaging,

Breaking cycles,

Como emprezo,

The resentment of not having known,

The Person I could have Been,

If I was allowed the Space to Grow,

Instead, I was Showered with Shame,

Scathed by the People who Swore to Love me,

Who is she? Who could She have been?

She would have followed her Dreams,

Blooming like a Sunflower

in the Middle of Summer,

Walking Confidently,

She wouldn’t know Fear;

Maybe,

I’ll never know,

She Doesn’t Exist,

Yet, I grieve, because I wish she Did,

Instead, I grew like a plant in Distress,

Wilting,

Yellowing,

You broke me down with your words

You broke me down with your physical abuse

You broke me down to the point where I don't know if I can ever recover

You broke me Down with your violence

You taught me violence and I forgot how to love

I forgot how to love myself

I forgot if I ever did

I forgot how to live without fear

I forgot how to trust

I forgot how to let others love me

You taught me to hate myself

When I make a mistake, I am harsh to myself

I want to cut myself and make myself bleed

Who taught you violence?

What must you have gone through to become so mean?

Whatever they did to you

But

I am broken

I can't drink without crying

I tear my lashes off

And let the tears flow

It's almost like I can't experience joy

Without self sabotaging

I lose my phone

I lose myself

In alcohol

It's my frenemy

I drown myself in it

Then drown myself in self pity

When I make a fool of myself

Beer's bitter Taste Complements Heartaches

Liqueur​ on My Lips Mimics your Sweet Kiss