art stuff

quivers in my boots

ugh so far i’ve only got coco and qifrey down. i haven’t even tried drawing richeh yet sorry girlypop

this was for trans visibility yesterday…heheh all my trans ocs so far

flags left to right: gender apathetic and agender, bigender, nonbinary, demigirl, gender apathetic, demiboy

ignore the straight-up fruit lmao i haven’t drawn them in a while…sorry…

had a conversation with my pretty moderate mother about trump in general but first we talked about what's happened in venezuela. actually, she was my first source of info. the way she phrased it made it seem like maduro was discreetly assassinated and that nothing else happened (her exact words were "did you hear they got maduro?"). needless to say, i was pretty shocked when i did my own research and found out that they dropped a fucking bomb. i can't support those actions but my mother seems fine with it.

we talked about general policy and the economy, too, and this is when i started to get scared. she kept leading with "i don't support them but" and then proceeded to say some... interesting things. she said a lot of "well at least they're trying something" and "they're a big picture person, they know what they're doing. it's a risk but they know what they're doing." she defended the tariffs, not fully but enough to rattle me.

this isn't really the first time our politics have differed but in the past i've been able to write it off as a lack of understanding. i'm very open about my queerness and she seems accepting on the front but she still has my deadname in her phone. she still has my trans sister's deadname in her phone. she has repeatedly misgendered and deadnamed my trans friends but has immediately come up with excuses that looking back, are frankly stupid. one i remember is "oh i deadnamed her [my sister], sorry, i was trying to remember her girlfriend's name." she's also said some shit about trans women needing to be on men's sports teams instead of women's, and she's been aphobic to my very aroace face in the past (the "well you might change your mind one day" kind). to explain why i've ignored this: she's not exactly the smartest person in history (she once said that a memory game, like the ones where you flip cards over and try to match duplicates, was hard, which i know isn't an accurate test of intelligence but that isn't the only thing she's said/done that's made me believe that she isn't as smart as she seems), and she is pretty ignorant on queer issues in general. so i thought she was well-meaning, but ignorant.

i don't know anymore. the only social media she has is facebook which is alarming, to say the least. and i'm starting to think that a lot of her queerphobia is genuinely malicious. adding on to what she said today...

well, i'm scared. i'm really scared. she's been abusive to me in the past already. she seems to be falling into a maga circle and i don't think she realizes it. i'm homeschooled, she teaches me, my only sibling moved out, and my dad divorced her 2 years ago. i'm trapped in a house with her and only her. i'm 16, in my junior year, old enough to know what's going on but too young to get out. i don't want to be here anymore but i have no where else to go. because of the situation i'm in financially and with my basically nonexistent support system outside of my partner (who also has a very nonexistent support system), i probably won't be able to properly leave until 2029. i'm scared for my own safety now. i don't know if she'll kick me out but i don't trust that she won't.

i know when i send asks here, i usually try to end them on a positive note because i do believe that we, as a country, will persist. we will get through to 2028. we will survive. but for me, as a person? i really don't know anymore. and not even because of my mental health struggles, i simply don't know if i'll even be in a position to survive.

to be clear, i'm not giving up yet. i'm scared shitless more than i've ever been but i'm not going to give up. it's not over till i'm dead and everyone i care about is too. i will, in the wise words of tyler joseph of twenty one pilots, push on through. we all will.

Well, to this asker I wanna say, you aren’t the first person to lose someone you love like this. But we can unpack the sentimental stuff later. Let’s make some plans now.

Your mother cannot legally kick you out before you turn 18. If your father is still in your life and she did this, he could definitely sue for full custody. I’m not so much worried about her kicking you out, I’m worried you’re gonna have to escape. So let’s talk about that.

There are a few articles here about what to put in a go-bag. Here’s one I liked:

Remember when you're googling stuff for this problem; 1, browse in an incognito tab or clear history after every session, nothing is worth the risk

And 2, google abusive RELATIONSHIP advice.

You'll get a lot of stuff for battered partners, but if you google stuff for abusive parents, you'll get a bunch of "obey your parents your parents love you" propaganda

... that looks REALLY bad out of context I jusf realized

point is, just google abusive relationship advice, don't specify that it's an abusive parent.

There may be nothing you can do to help your mother. I am sorry for that. But all you can do now is focus on getting on your oxygen mask.

Look up the emancipation age for your state. Most states are set to 15 or 16 depending on the law and situation around it.

Look up safe houses for Queer folks. if you live in or near a college city reach out to the rainbow clubs there for advice.

Follow the Bitchesgetriches here on Tumblr: they have a guide specifically for how to move out of your parents house and be financially stable.

If you have classmates you're on decent terms with, or senior friends who are moving out soon, ask if you can couch serf in exchange for chores.

Reach out to your sibling/father.

Look for jobs that will hire 16 year olds.

Look up shelters in your region.

Make a list of abuses that your mother does against you. Be specific you will be asked about this multiple times. Have your partner keep that list out of your mother's house.

Get prepared.

Just because you're home schooled doesn't mean the system is not still available to you.

This link here will take you to a site that organized the Child Abuse registered by each state. It will give a general definition of the types of abuses that are recognized, what exemptions exist (a lot of religious ones ick), and links on how to report or who you can report to.

The next time you're at your doctors appointment (assuming you still go to your general practitioner) By Federally recognized and still there law in all 50 states and territories: You as a 16 year old are entitled to privacy afforded to you by HIPPA. Your mother doesn't have to sit in with you for appointments anymore. All medical professionals are mandatory reporters.

Once you are alone with your doctor, you can tell them straight up "I do not feel safe with my mother, I need help to get out of my living situation." You don't have to tell them you're queer if you're in a dangerous Trump majority region.

Any doctor or nurse or clinical social worker who hears that phrase will be required to act. They will ask you questions about the abuse, they will probably put your information into a case file for you. there will be an investigation. You don't have to tell them your queer. That list of abuses comes in handy if you can point to the problems she has done to you, without connecting it all to your queerness, even a red state will find a way to help.

You have rights, even as a minor, to be in a safe living space. Depending on what you know your needs to be, they can manufacture more "medical tests" to give you time with a social worker. Who will guide you on applying for assistance programs in your region, or prepare an escape plan with volunteers to keep you safe.

If you feel safe with your father, and he respects your identity TELL HIM, he can and should fight for you and will have more legal authority available to him as a divorced parent. If you go to the clinic about your mother's verbal abuse and general lack of safety, the system will try to pair you with your father first, then your brother, before emancipation. In an effort to help you maintain some kind of support system and to keep one less child out of foster care. If you've got a close bond and you trust them, you can coordinate with your sibling and social worker to move in with them instead if your father is also not a safe option.

Your partner may also be an option, if their parents are also safe, you can insist on what situation you feel is best for your well-being. You will have to advocate hard for this, but if you and are partner are gun hoe for the long term goals, you may even have to make a case with their parents to help. But I don't see a reason why the state would refuse an emancipated minor the right to move in with their partner. IDK what the laws are in regards to every state. And IDK what the severity of queer hate is in your area, so use your best judgement.

Researching will take a while. But if you are committed to leaving your mother, advocate your right to just getting moved to your father/brother/partner's place. Make sure they are aware of your situation, your intentions, and are able to take you in. (Often times the social worker can help fosters/extended family get assistance/compensation for housing+feeding you for two years. They have the knowledge of community programs and charities, lean on their knowledge hard, ask them all the questions you could ever ask.)

i know nothing about knights. why did i make them

below the first image is their very first design TToTT i liked the color distribution on that one better tbh, but the newer one is more…realistic? i guess? anygays i hope you like them, background info is soon to come if i decide to post it here

(3 posts in a row will never happen again, probably)