me: is having a lot of anxiety  me: lays on the floor bc for some reason i believe this will Help me: now on the floor, with a lot of anxiety,

that bipolar feel when you’re either the life of the party or the one who ruins it

alright ive said it before and im saying it again.. ya’ll should check out @fantasticfp !!! its a great blog where people with bpd and dpd can talk about their fps or the people they’re fixated on etc and just talk about how great they are or what makes you happy about them and its just.. such a good pure thing to have tbh

it’s really difficult when one of your fps (i have two) is someone who isolates themselves and goes months or longer without talking to you. the last time i saw this person was the night trump won and we played chess and drank coffee and i was so happy and like…. i see him posting on instagram but he doesn’t reply to me lately and honestly it’s so exhausting because i can’t say ‘hi, i have bpd, and you’re my fp so please notice me’ bc that would make him run further. we’re so far apart and my point is you can have an fp who you never talk to and it may be one of the most tiring and sad things to deal with tbh

bpd feel of the day: my fp paid attention to me and now all of my disorders are cured; I have never once been sad ever in my entire life

bpd concept: I stop being the way I am

isn’t it just funny how a fp can be both the cause of you not killing yourself and the reason you wanna shoot yourself and by funny i mean stressful as shit