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I was taken advantage of. I was assaulted. I buried the pain because I couldn’t find the courage to demand accountability. Finding the words were forced upon me through serendipitous civic duty. Was a drunken night when I said no but the relented relevant? Was something I had no memory of relevant? When I found the words there was no one to speak those words to and sit with me with those words.

EXPECTATIONS| God spoke to my heart today & it shocked me. God has a word for me? Me, the one whose only expectations are broken promises, disappointment, and loneliness. I just want to be fiercely, deeply loved. And I can’t do that for myself— love me, trust me, affirm me. What a sad place.