I’m like a ghost in the hallway so unnoticeable

Thinking about when I’d call you and you’d always pick up the phone

I miss when the world was only as big as your arms as we sat on the roof of your shitty car

I miss you

Your bedroom door is open and you let me in for the first time in three years

And you’re sitting on your bed with your trademark grin and your brown curls falling around your ears

I love you i do but I cant express it without hurting you

And I tried to say I do but I just can’t tell the truth

You say I can’t be with you cause you can’t act consistently

I say sorry this isn’t who I wanted to be 

And I think if I could verbalize my thoughts and tell you the pretty words I forgot

You would have stayed

Oh I could sit on this couch and write love songs for you every single day

For the rest of my life I would never complain

I love you i do but I cant express it without hurting you

And I tried to say I do but I just can’t tell the truth

and i keep dreaming about you

you’re not here so i keep dreaming about you

like thats gonna bring you back

like thats gonna bring you back

Your bedroom door is open and you let me in for the first time in three years

And you’re sitting on your bed with your trademark grin and your brown curls falling around your ears

I love you i do but I cant express it without hurting you

And I tried to say I do but I just can’t tell the truth

I love you i do but I cant express it without hurting you

Am I crazy baby? Am I crazy baby

I feel insane for loving you the way that I do

You say “don’t call me baby, Pet names are fucking silly

Oh god I can’t breathe I think I need to leave”

Backtrack to when we first met under the bleachers in high school

And you said you wanted weed it was a one time thing But you just kept coming back to me

You and your sister both went to college, you were so cool

I visited you every week, you graduated finally, and you asked “do you wanna move in with me?”

I said “of course, I do, of course I do” And we got an apartment and bought a new bar

And you got your sister and I got my best friend and we’d drink all night, thought the world was ours

We were crazy baby, Insane and so unsteady

But we lived our twenties like our favorite action movies

We were crazy baby, We were so unsteady

But you knew I’d be the wind beneath your wings

Fastrack to selling a house together, faking marriage was so clever 

So we did it again But you said we’re only friends even if we’d depend on each other ’til the end

And we’d go to that Italian restaurant every month

We’d always dress our best and I always suppressed the urge to ask are we really just friends?

You would’ve said “of course we are, of course we are why else would I live with you and run a bar?” 

That was enough for me I always believed that the world would forever be ours

And now, you’re standing in front of me

Your voice is a little bit weak

It’s valentines day and you always hated

Seeing people happy cause that was never you and me

And as you open up the crate I see your face, there are tears in your eyes

And the only time you ever cried was when you thought you were in love and didn’t have to lie

Maybe I’m in love Maybe you’re in love

Well it had to be one of the above

everything changed and you kept feeling pain

you looked at the gift I got you and said

 “you’re so fucking crazy, making me act insanely

I have to get away from you, I know what I should do”

I say “don’t leave me baby I know its really scary

But please stay” and you shut the door in my face 

And left me there

With forty years of memories just hanging in the air

In our empty home I wonder