all the fishes in the sea

if any of you are please let yourselves be KNOWN

Everytime I open this website it’s just pictures of sharks and bots in my inbox

This blog feels like a shipwreck with sexy robot mermaids trying to get my bank details

If you are a real human and we’ve followed each other a while oh please give me a bell, I don’t know if I should continue to use this haunted house of a website or if I need to find another place to be weird!

and like look, I’m potentially never going to buy a scales because I, shockingly, have a history with obsessing over my weight, however, having an objective indication of where my bod’s at would be SICK right now

anyway anyway I was talking about this with my girlfriend and I feel better and I have a lil plan in place to strike a balance between exhausting myself and not having any routine. I just want some kind of stability in this chaos. And I’m lucky as fuck because my home life is generally very stable and sweet and great and lovely.

so this is doable

But I’m also missing moving loads. I miss feeling sexy which I’m learning is, for better or worse, really important to me

I miss the fuck out of smoking. I keep thinking this would be a lovely experience if I still smoked. I miss drinking and I miss going dancing While drinking and smoking. Which is gas I didn’t do these things before Covid anyway! Like five years ago yeah but not recently!