I walk in darkness,I stand In light

You’re worth more than this.

She does not love you. You need to simply let her go. She does not need to know of your love Keep it to yourself. Even if it hurts you so. She would only deserve it If she loved you. If she cared the way that you do. She wants only your friendship Her actions this has shown to you. At this point I am certain There is nothing more to know. Do not reach out But do not ignore. Let her be. For she was never yours. But you will always be there for her. You will always care. Every time you see her face You have every right to acknowledge this fear. Beauty has a power That no man will ever have. To break a heart yet keep it. Will I ever escape your grasp????

This was some sort of deja vu. I swear this has happened once. Yet the first time, this bliss was not with you. I had fallen in love with a simple touch. Infatuated in my senses to the point of being drunk. This is so familiar, I wonder if you are any different. I contemplate giving you my love, and wonder the depth of your commitment . I am hesitant to voice my excitement, as the resonance of my past still rings out in objection. “Haven’t you learned your lesson? Leading with your heart will only burn away the passion. But I swear she is worth it. You don’t even know her yet. Don’t smother a love that is meant to grow by extinguishing the hope of a future so close. You have nothing to lose but time if you wait. Opportunity will remain if you keep it in your gaze. Tread softly on the stepping stones you sow. Some lead to prosperity, others will stunt your growth.

If only you found the same gratification you find in hurting someone as in loving them. The problem is loving them hurts you.

Lend me your eyes

If only you found the same gratification you find in hurting someone as in loving them. The problem is loving them hurts you.

Sometimes

I’ve watched this happen time and time again. I love so passionately. I encourage so desperately. I patiently deconstruct every single wall, that prevented me from having you truly experience what it is to be yourself with me. I am not perfect but I am loyal, I am trustworthy, I am hardworking, and I am honest. I care about your happiness and growth, in fact so much so that is a goal of mine to see you grow so tall you have to trim your branches from scratching the sky. I believe in your potential. I appreciate and bask in the wonder of your accomplishment. I work as hard as I can to provide stability and a sense of luxury. I want you to feel lavish in my company and exalted by my feelings. Sometimes I work too much and you seemed to feel i’m not giving enough of me. In reality I now see I had given you too much of me. I had wore myself so thin I didn’t see how badly I had allowed you to mistreat me. I always just forgave, it was easier to let the pain go then just simmer inside me. As long as i could hold you close I could pretend that loving you as much as I could was enough. It wasn’t. I’ll never forget the day I had to separate my thoughts of you and I. I had to figure out how to be alone. Just as I have watched this happen time and time again. This time was different. I have remained alone instead of searching for commitment. Now that we are apart. Now that I am no longer there for you to hold on to. You find your self falling inexplicably in love with me. It is now that you see all that I do. You wish nothing more then the opportunity to wait for me. My love I can no longer keep you waiting. I have loved you so deeply I have suffered so greatly. I apologize that I can no longer be the love you hope for. You will be the example of the lesson I have learned. Never again will I allow someone to hurt me the way you did. Yet with my deepest regard I thank you. You showed me my worth. You showed me how great I could be, I just wish you realized it before this ended.