∎∎∎ the laugh that vibrates from charlie’s throat is unavoidable. they bask in quinn’s reaction at the sight of the shoebox, even more when he realizes what’s inside, and a soft nod comes before their verbal answer. “ of course i kept them; how could i not ? ” the smile that follows the words is gentle and small, but it’s there, and it’s absolutely sincere, something charlie’s smiles often aren’t.
they shift on the bed when quinn takes the stack of post-its from their hands, and a new laugh, this time softer, hits the walls of the place when he finally manages to recall the story behind them. “ that is unhinged, i never knew you wrote all these actually on the bus, as it was happening. ” they take the stack back, place them carefully inside the shoebox, and the smile they offer this time has a sprinkle of melancholy on top. “ i can’t remember all the stuff we talked either, that’s why i keep all of this, ” they clarify, not embarrassed in the slightest. they would be, though, if it were someone else, but not with quinn. they muse the question for a second then, and return their attention to the box to look for the first letter they received from him all those years ago. “ you should have the first one because i started our … correspondence, but this is the answer, ” charlie hands him a colorful envelope made of different types of paper. “ i told you about a girl i kissed on the back of my first car, and how just then my first car felt like my car. do you remember ? i was kind of insane about it. ”