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But if you look hard enough online, you can play the game too.

Thinspo.

Meanspo.

Pro ana.

Low cal recipies.

ABC diets.

Green tea.

Group chats.

Forums.

Rewards.

Punishments.

We are all playing the game and the only way to win is if you’re dead.

But you’d better be skinny.

Iced coffee is a meal replacement and a handful of pretzels with peanut butter is now a binge.

1 meal a day if you’re lucky and 500 calories feels like 5,000.

There’s a strong correlation with intake and weight. As one goes down, so does the other.

25 lbs since August.

Not enough.

It’s not noticeable yet.

25 more to go.

That’s the ticket.

This isn’t a coping skill anymore.

It’s a lifestyle.

It’s a challenge.

It’s a game.

I’m tired 24/7 but the hunger in my stomach is exhilarating.

My clothes are getting bigger but it’s hiding my body for the big reveal.

I’m shivering all the time but the green tea warms my shaking hands.

My motivation to live my life is dropping but so is the number of concerned people.

I’m lonely but the numbers are comforting and can fill the void.

This isn’t something we choose to play, however, it is a deadly game.