No, I'm not coming back.

So it's been a long time and I feel like I should just update you all.

I'm not I the TF2 fandom anymore for several reasoms, including the fact that it's just lost its touch. There was a learning stage at which I enjoyed delving deeper into each character's personality and their stories. I love the game, but... Now it's just a game. It's not anything new or exciting. It's just a game.

I'm still waiting for name reveals, other reveals and especially the seventh comic, but that's another problem. The seventh comic most likely isn't coming out until next year. There was no new content, and while I'm sure there is now, I'm just not that into it anymore.

Plus, I had a lot of stuff bottled up and I took it out on some people who shipped things I didn't like, specifically BushMedicine. Oh, how I hated that ship, but I wish I'd been at least a little nicer. Honestly.

So... Yeah. I don't think HeavyMedic is going to happen, but keep in mind that I would still love it if it did. It's not really relevant to the story, and it's not TF2's style. They don't focus on relationships much at all, and while it would be amazing if they did focus on HeavyMedic, at least a few small signs would be wonderful. Holy crud canon HeavyMedic would be amazing, but I don't think it's going to happen.

So yeah. I hope everyone's doing fine.

I'm sorry. I feel like I've let everyone down.

I'm not okay. I'm broken. I've been broken for a long time.

Yes things were going great, yes I was so fucking happy for this blog but things started to go wrong. Well, actually, things were going great. So great that I didn't need this blog to be happy. But my friend just went through a breakup that opened up wounds that closed a long time ago. Bitch, they were scars. Now they're open again.

They may have been scars but I realize now that they made me scared to love and be loved. They made me scared to show emotion. I'm scared that people will find out how I feel because of him. Because yeah, it's planted deep down in my mind that love makes me weak. I'm afraid to open myself up, because of a past experience I don't want to mention. No it shouldn't have been life changing, but I was a late developer in the sense that I didn't know what exactly was going on in the world until I was older than most. Hell, I didn't even know that Instagram existed. I didn't know what Tumblr was until I was 13. I didn't know that people lied. I didn't know that people could lie because I certainly couldn't.

I have my reasons for leaving. Those among just not being interested in TF2 anymore. It seems like such a long time ago that I was in this fandom. Yes I'll follow along in the next parts of the story, and yes I may still play. But so many things have changed recently and I can't be worrying about this blog anymore. I'm genuinely sorry.

If I ever decide to be a part of the fandom again I will come back, but that's likely to be never. I want to focus on real life now. I've got to move on.