I created this Tumblr in 2015, and for a few years I was here all the time, reblogging everything, like K-pop had its own entire section of my life. I have not been active in a long time, and logging in today felt unexpectedly familiar, but distant too. I suppose that is true of Tumblr itself, but what has not changed is the love for music.

Life has kept moving. I have gotten older, gotten married, moved, and started a professional career. Entire chapters have come and gone, and yet somehow, I still find my way back to BTOB, Monsta X, and VIXX. There were so many others too, and this blog was full of them, but these are some of the groups I seem to keep returning to most. It’s not always in an active or obvious way, and not always in ways I even notice when life gets busy, but they have stayed with me all the same. The music, the history, the affection I have for these groups…it is all still there, even when I am not here to talk about it.

Seeing Ilhoon today and hearing him speak about BTOB stirred something in me. Hearing that BTOB is returning as six did too. So did seeing signs of life from VIXX with N. These things reach me differently now than they once did, but I think that is just what happens when something has been part of you for so long. It changes shape, but it does not disappear.

I do not know whether this is really a return. Maybe it is just a pause to acknowledge that this part of me never really left. And for now, I think that is enough.