littl faerie

I don't want to feel infected by the gaze of others

dicks out for chronic emptiness

Ignore this.okay have seen a post that has made me consider the possibility that there are people on here who do not actually have bpd as they may think or claim and now I feel uncomfortable that there may be some misguided individuals following me and what one would call the community , taking away from the ability of people with bpd to share their own struggles without them being invalidated. Obviously I have no way of knowing who does and does not have any given disorder, but I am just making this post to express that I feel uncomfortable with the fact that there could be these people out there .I feel hurt when I think about it .anyways just wanted to express my discomfort .not to anyone in particular, and in fact im talking to myself making this post lol im just journaling .because it is upsetting to sit with this feeling

I wish I could be a better friend but I just don't #feel

I am feeling romantically lonely tonight. Steeping in sadness. Hopefully I'll just have to hold on until the morning, when I will with any luck once again feel cold and empty and not care for relationships...