For the first time, I feel a deep yearning to create something meaningful and to truly earn every possession and achievement in my life.
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For the first time, I feel a deep yearning to create something meaningful and to truly earn every possession and achievement in my life.

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There’s a strange kind of peace in becoming a recluse on purpose.
Not the sad kind people imagine. Not loneliness as punishment. More like finally hearing your own thoughts after years of living inside everyone else’s noise.
I think moving out feels a little like that.
Not some dramatic “new life” montage. Just small, quiet freedoms stacking on top of each other:
making coffee at 2am because no one can tell you not to.
Leaving dishes in the sink for one night and realizing the world doesn’t end. (Which probably won’t happen cause I’m overly organized)
Learning what silence sounds like when it belongs to you.
People romanticize independence like it’s loud and cinematic, but sometimes it’s just sitting on the floor of your new place with tired eyes and realizing:
“I can finally become someone without an audience.”
Maybe that’s why recluses fascinate me.
Not because they disappear from the world, but because they choose themselves before the world gets to choose for them.
And honestly? I think I’m ready for that kind of life now.
As time passes, prioritizing yourself becomes more important than prioritizing others. That’s what pouring from a full cup truly means.
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i think my job is making me dumb. in the sense that it consumes so much of my energy during the day that i dont feel like doing anything creative or anything else at all after i get off. i dont feel like reading news articles, i dont feel like watching movies or shows, i dont feel like finishing my books, i dont feel like sticking to my hobbies. i often find myself choosing the least taxing entertainment options: going out or hanging at a friend’s house, scrolling or going for a walk with an audiobook that i would mark dnf if i had picked it up in physical form. when you get accustomed to cheap dopamine rushes, your brain gradually atrophies, yet it’s so hard to rewire.
*cher voice* do you believe in life after work?

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“Can you remember who you were, before the world told you who you should be?”
— Charles Bukowski
“If you care about someone, you’d be honest with them about everything no matter what it is.”
— Unknown
Having experienced both, I am not sure which is worse; intense feeling, or the absence of it.
Actually? I’m kinda done with the yearning for a person. And I’m done with the romanticisation of that yearning. Maybe my soulmate was never born in this life. Maybe soulmates don’t exist. Maybe souls even don’t exist. Okay, I take that last one back.
But the point, the point is fuck this shit. How can I try to be happy in my own life when I keep thinking that it being merged with another’s life is going to be the ultimate thing? I may fall in love, I may even meet that big true love of my life. But like so what if I don’t?
It’s like how do you enjoy play time on the ground as a child when your best friend has not shown up? Nothing is fun without them and you just don’t feel like playing with anyone.
But here, that friend is hypothetical. You don’t even know if they exist. But you’re at the playground. Go on, play, you know? You can’t have convinced yourself that this hypothetical friend is going to show up and only then will you truly play and have fun.
Cos like there is so much fun to be had, man. All this yearning? Yuck.
“Don’t be the reason someone feels insecure. Be the reason someone feels seen, heard, and supported.”
— Cleo Wade
I’ll be there for myself.

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“Sometimes you have to lose your mind before you come to your senses.”
— Socrates
Let go
I couldn’t stop liking you because if I did, my care for you would also be lost.
I no longer remember your touch; how your palm fit against the small of my back, how your hand felt in mine, or how my head settled into the curve of your neck. But your smile lingers, crooked and bright, in the empty cathedral of my chest. Your voice finds me in dreams, murmuring my name like a secret. I keep returning to the grave of what we were, kneeling in the soft dirt of almosts and what-ifs. My fingers brush the headstone of a love that ended too quietly, searching for warmth that isn’t there. You are a ghost who chose to disappear. How cruel, leaving only the beautiful parts behind to torment me with what I can never have again.
“I don’t want something that fades after a moment. I want something that deepens every time I look at you.”

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“You didn’t lose me suddenly. You just made it easier to leave, one decision at a time.”
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