Just A Place For My Thoughts

✨ Hey! Figured I'd make a lil about me/pinned post! ✨

🩵 Name: Anything you wish to call me. Though I'm partial to Wave or Bones.

🩵 Age: 27

🩵 Pronouns: she/they

🩵 Mainblog: rainbowtown (I follow from there.)

SW: 247

GW1: 200

GW2: 180

GW3: 160

GW4: 140

GW5: 120

UGW: 100

CW: 243.2

Weigh-In Day: Every Sunday.

✨ Random little things about me. I'm pagan and enjoy reading, cosplay and anime. If you ever need a friend my inbox is open! Just a little shy, lmao. I do prefer to only talk to people 18+ being the age I am, it just makes me more comfortable. ✨

⚠️ This is not a safe spot for anyone in recovery or thinking about recovery. I am sick and this is really my only outlet to let anything out. I wish for everyone here to be able to recover and have wonderful lives! Please, please be safe! ⚠️

Day 6: Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

I failed again. I'm scared to look at the scale. I fell down a vicious cycle. I need to get back in control. I desperately need it.

Day 5: Why do you really want to lose weight? Are you doing it for you?

Not to be superficial but— I want to be small. I've always been the big girl. I remember saying to myself "I don't want to get over 200 pounds." and when that happened instead of fixing the problem I'd just shift the weight... "I don't want to get over 220 pounds... 230 pounds... ect."

When I was little - waaaay before getting big - I remember looking at my thighs and thinking "These are really big..." and then when I went through puberty and started putting on weight fast it was confirmed by my mother and grandmother that I was big. I don't think they ever meant it maliciously but telling a kid they should try to lose weight their whole childhood kind of fucks with them.

Day 4: Your greatest fears about weight loss.

Loose skin. Gods, I am terrified that I'm going to be covered in just disgusting, hanging, loose skin everywhere and if that happens I know I will /never/ be happy. I don't have the money for skin removal surgery.

Day 3: A picture of your thinspiration. What features do you like about this person?

Well it's hard to choose just one but here's one. I want to be small and dainty like a doll. I like that about this picture. Small and dainty.

Day 2: How tall are you, do you like your height?

Jumping on the bandwagon of this. That and it'll give me something to focus on and stay on track with.

Day 1: Your stats.

239.8 lbs / 108.77 kg