anorexic angst

it's so weird to me that my childhood friends have good memories of my mother but i get stuck with memories of her using me to body check when i was 7 :\\\\

you never really grow up from being 13 and harming yourself to deal with the cruel world around you, huh?

as a teenager, i used to hate sylvia plath but now i really get why she did it bc being in my thirties has brought nothing but suffering

trying not to have a panic attack at work because i have to teach soon but i just feel so shitty about everything ever and my diet coke isn't helping and vaping isn't helping and i just want to curl up in a ball and cry myself out

my kingdom for a rugged masc that's into psychotic femmes with religious trauma to the point of being trapped in a borderline abusive marriage to a man

honestly being in my thirties with an ED is so embarrassing bc i want to have kids but i also know that being pregnant will send me right back to the psych ward :)

my partner asked if i ever considered ozempic while i'm only eating once a day and working out everyday ☺️ i guess i'm fully back in the ED business, time to browse thinspo while listening to weight loss subs

i'd probably be better off dead lmao anyway i relapsed again hahahaha love this for me!!!! 😊

i love when men get their own bro version of EDs and won't stfu about being ""calorie conscious"" and it ruins ur recovery progress and now i haven't eaten in two days because my fear of calories is back!!!!🤪

after a year, i'm back with a relapsed ED, a fun new personality disorder, and a mystery illness that makes my heart rate and blood pressure skyrocket when i stand up