Defibs and CPR Galore

Source: 911Bio-med

also haha i'm still here

I’m at the point where the blame game is just too much.  I made one mistake, and now everyone thinks i have a problem.  I’ve deleted my server, and now the community is probably going to find themselves in a different server, which of course I’ll never find out what it is, because it’s just too hard to find these things.  I don’t expect to ever be a mod or admin for the community again, and none of those guys are probably ever going to want me as a part of those servers.  If i do find one by chance, which is unlikely, I fully expect to be banned immediately.

さようなら。

I’d LOVE to not have to deal with stupid drama but ugh I guess that’s what we do here.  2 weeks ago I was removed from a mod position on the discord server after I spoke to a friend (an ex) who is a sexual psychologist (in lamens terms- if you’ve been around the old forum or talked to me at any length in the last several years you I’ve referenced our conversations as well as some shared research we’ve undertaken within the resus community multiple times)  and suggested privately to the mod team that we develop a code of conduct for the members that would give us as a mod team a more broad power base in which we could police behavior that we thought was hurting the community. (Immature, generally creepy, potentially unhealthy behavior)  While also exploring other ideas that we spoke about- most namely the idea that having the resus community “under one roof” was generally a poor idea for a multitude of reasons. (I may talk about that idea further, I may not, if you really wanna know, ask me I’m happy to talk about the psychology of this fetish any day it’s a hobby at this point)  At the time the mods involved went along with the removal of my status on the server, though I asked through LordGeorge to meet with him and mtmfan (who initiated the removal) to discuss it because I thought it was silly that I was being removed because I had been upfront with my desire to help develop the culture within the community as a mod and was being removed for doing that job because the discussion was potentially a difficult one.   Soooooo I went about my way there are 3 members here I talk with regularly and kept in contact with them, went quiet but stayed on the server and deleted most of the stuff off my wall here. (That was unrelated but it did happen) I had been considering making some changes in how I approach my existence with this community for my own well being- I’ve had a bit of a glow up this spring/summer and I’m looking to have a more healthy relationship with my sexual interests in a way that works for me. I still think it’s time to experiment with some new ways to function within this community and I think those things may still come out over the next few weeks it’s not out of spite but things were progressing that way anyway even before the recent drama.  For those of you not in the know a member was recently banned from the discord server without evidence, when other members of the mod team approached mtmfan as to why it occurred they were also banned.   However, and this is where my heart kind of breaks, when it privately became known to some what had transpired I was quickly confided in by others about private conversations that mtmfan was having with female members of this community who were too scared to accuse him of anything because of his role in the community. He is, undoubtedly one of the creeps in this community who have been doing such things as propositioning female members for in person meetups right out of the bat, and in generally acting in a way that made multiple female members of this community feel uncomfortable. I will admit that those of us on the mod team knew of some of these transgressions and we turned a blind eye to it because we didn’t want to think that was true. I know I speak for those of us who had the power to do something- we are sorry and we will be better.  I want to let everyone know the truth of what is going on, mental illness is a sadly very real situation many of us struggle with and I’ve watched a leader in this community begin to struggle with things. He says he needs to sleep on the server but, having witnessed a significant alteration in behavior over the last few weeks I can assure you that is not simply the case and with those stories coming out, in what ever shape the future of this community on discord takes over the next few days when I say we will be better this means mtmfan will no longer be a member of this community until he demonstrates a commitment to improving his own health. We want everyone to be a part of this community, but I must stress in a healthy and mature way. The future of the server will be explained in the next coming days, please look to Tumblr for news regarding how this will be handled. As I said on the server please be safe everyone, take care of your mental health it’s been a very trying time for everyone in the world. Hopefully over the next coming months we can provide a structure that will allow for healthy, adult, escapism to help with what we’ve all experienced in the last year or so. We’re sorry for the drama, stay safe.   

I apologize for those who very upset, angry or mad about this topic including entire people on this resus community. I'm truly sorry about this. I'm really am. And I never repeat this mistake ever again. I'm promise. Just please don't block or report me from this community. That's it. I hope you guys understand.😔

I’m not convinced.  Nobody is convinced.  You’re done.  I thought you were cool, man, but I guess I was wrong.

Just be patient, they’ll come back when it’s safe.

60. ask me anything you want